Flat, Lifeless...

I don't know. I'm feeling...different. It's a new stage of my floaty moods. I've been here before but never so deeply. I'm not even sure I want to be writing this. My mind is so fogged. Such a great heaviness I bear right now...So I'm feeling alone. In crowds of people I feel alone and alone I feel small. Like a lost child, alone and afraid, almost ready to welcome anyone to hold me, but still clutching to the thought that I will find my Mother. But perhaps this is a test, the voices are always testing me so mayhap the current world wishes to test me as well. *closes her eyes* So be it. Alas, I finished my book. "Lover Awakened" was a beautiful book. I think I may read it again, and perhaps a third and fourth time. As I thought I grew to love Phury so much more. And Tohrment...oh my heart breaks for him. Zsadist became closer to my heart as I knew we would, but his female, Bella, has become a favorite too. Someone I didn't expect to get closer with is Butch, the human that hangs out with the Brotherhood. Him and Vishous live together in The Pit, like a guest house of the Brotherhoods mansion. They are not together. I loved the ending and then again I hated it. I still wonder the name of Zsadist child, whether or not he named her Nalla. In the book it says Nalla means something along the lines of 'beloved', so if he did name her that I wouldn't be too surprised. Anyway, I've got to go now. Farewell.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret