Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers
I'm bored today, and I'm not sure whats different about today either. Maybe I'm just not feelin' it today. By It I mean that vibe you get when you know your alive. In Info Tech class right now and Mr.Urner is teaching us how to take notes (because we don't know how to do that. @_@) I've also found an interesting quote that I am supposed to save. I'll post it:
"It's hard to believe that moments that once brought a smile to my lips now bring tears to my eyes." -- Suketsu Tenshi Aleandera
Don't steal it, because it isn't yours and you didn't say it. I'm tired now. I want to write stuff but I can't because I don't know what to write. I want to read something but I can't because it will look like I am not paying attention. I talked to my dad online the other night and I never want to do it again. Just because of how stupid he is 'sometimes' (because he isn't dumb all the time...at least I'd like to believe so) I want to cry but I can't because I don't know how in a sense. That's my secret for today. That I can't cry. No matter how hard I try to I just can't. Crying pisses me off for some reason and when I do it I hate myself for crying in the first place and hate myself for not being able to show the emotion others can. When I can though...when I am on the brink of tears I hold them back, even though I know I won't be able to do it later. I should stop explaining this because I'm going to regret doing so later.
I have a question for you all, what would you want your epitaph to say? For those who don't know what and epitaph is look at the bottom of the page for "Word Of The Day" I haven't changed it in a while so those who frequent that section of the blog I'm sorry. Now I want to post this before I have to type it again because I think the computers are going to "mysteriously" go out again like on Friday.
TWMA,
Sacred Secret
P.S: Crying pisses me off, but when I can't cry I hate myself.
2 comments:
I felt the same way today. And you know...cryin is good for you. I cry too much, maybe I could lend you some of my tears. ^_~
I never EVER want you to hate yourself, believe that everything you do is beautiful and it will be.Know that your emotion is part of you and love yourself for being able to show it. If you should hate anyone, make it those who hate,they lack the heart to be kind. And crying is more than sadness,and it's more than tears, maybe think of crying as your soul being to big to remain within yoru body, so it has to leak out. You supressing will make it spill out all the more when it finally escapes.
Luvs Ya!
~~Fange'~~
aka
~Infinity~
I agree with Fange'!! I was the same way (you probabbly don't want to hear that) and now I cry at everything and it still drives me crazy. So maybe if I had found a private place and just cried a little more when I was younger I wouldn't be crying at everything!
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