Back 2 School

I gotta go to school today, but it's 2 hours late. So I don't have to be there until 9:30. Which is cool. It's probably mega cold outside anywayz. I'm hungry though, so I'm going to have some Trix cereal and take a shower (hopefully I'll have time to take one, if not I'll just take one after school) It's hot in my house though, and I couldn't sleep for the life of me. And now I can't type worth crap!!!! Damndable typos, God! I don't know if my sister has to go to school today or not. I'll find out later. Well I'm gonna go do that now, since there's nothing better to do. Have a nice day.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Oh My Gosh!

Okay like I said I'm posting now. But there isn't a whole lot to post about. The snow thing closed my school today. I think I enjoy not going to school but being home makes me sad :( . I want to go outside but it's cold and I take forever to get warm again. But I'll go out there eventually before the snow melts I guess. Until then I'll sit in my house and do my homework and talk to my friends who don't have school as well and sip hot cocoa. I don't think I've written anything new....I'll check for you though. Oh! Here's a story I wrote during Info Tech. If you find any similarities between a few books you've read or not that's probably because I was reading said books at the time. So here you go.

New Beginnings, Sorrowful Endings©:

Jeremiah paced back and forth silently, glancing at the clock."Is she done now?" he looked at his brothers and back to the clock.Leviathan shook his head
"She'll be done when she's done. They come and tell us, man. Wait." Jeremiah sighed and continued to pace. What if they didn't come and tell him? What if they just sat in there, making him suffer on purpose? Had he done something to offend them? He would apologize if that were what they wanted as long as they did not keep her for much longer.
He heard a door open and he looked over quickly.
"Mr..Yove'? Your wife and baby girl would like to see you now, and any immediate family." Jeremiah rushed over to her and looked at his brothers, "Come on, Come on!" He hurried as the five large men roused themselves from their chairs.
"Uh...well..." the nurse stammered, awed by their sheer size, "Are you all family?"
Leviathan looked at her and smiled. "Yes of course. May we see the baby now?" She nodded weakly and beckoned them through the doors.
Russell came last through the doors and shuddered, he did not like hospitals. "Trev, I don't want to go in there." he called softly to his brother, whom was ten years older than he.
"Come on, you want to see Mary and the baby right?" Russell nodded and followed close behind his brother, after taking his hand.
Leviathan walked with Aaron and Mack, talking with them about the game that had been on in the lobby. The Colts had won against the Patriots twenty-one to fourteen, and the twins were psyched. When the nurse opened the door to Mary's room, Jeremiah ran to her side so quickly it did not look like he had actually moved.
"Mary, are you alright? Where's the baby? Did you name her?" questions poured out of him so fast, Mary did notUnderstand, and held a weak paled finger to his lips. "Hush, Jeremiah. Samantha is fine. She's in the nursery." Jeremiah sighed in relief and kissed her hand, staring at her appreciatively.
Trevor and Russell came over and said softy that they were going to go see the baby, with the nurse. They left quietly. Aaron, Mack, and Leviathan joined Jeremiah at Mary's bedside, and smiled at her. She looked up weakly at all of them, smiling. "You all are such good boys. Stay that way, alright?" The twins exchanged worried glances, "What are you talking about?" Mack said frowning. Leviathan walked over to Jeremiah and whispered to him.
Jeremiah spoke softly his reply and a single tear slipped down his cheek. Mary touched the hands of the twins softly and looked back to her husband, "I love you, take good care of her." He nodded and said a soft "I will," before kneeling and covering his face with one hand, barely holding back sobs.
Aaron realized what was happening and backed away, falling ungracefully into a gray hospital chair. Mack's hands began to shake as he covered his mouth, convulsing, closing his eyes tightly attempting to hold back the flood of tears.
Leviathan stood beside Jeremiah, his large heavy hand on his shoulder, "It's going to be alright my brother." Jeremiah shook his head swiftly and stared, teary eyed up at his wife.
Mary looked down at him and smiled; "You have...to be." she took in another breath, "Strong for.Sam." He took her hand and nodded, not able to do anything else.
The nurse came back in with Russell and Trevor in tow, holding the smallest creature Jeremiah had seen in his entire life. And it was his, her soft cry, her smile, and her eyes. They were his, but they were also very much Marys'.
Russell handed Samantha over to Mary very carefully, completely aware of the protective Fathers eyes that watched his every movement. Mary smiled at the child and began to sing to her, in a soft motherly tone. After a while the baby's cries stopped, soon after that the song did as well.
With the baby still cuddled to her breast, she slipped out of the living world."We should take the baby from her now." The nurse suggested only getting six angry growls as her reply.
Jeremiah stood slowly leaning against the bed, his hand over his beloveds for the rest of time. "Jeremiah, take Sam, and lets get out of here." Leviathan instructed, patting the brothers back gently.
Nodding, Jeremiah slipped the child from her mother and held onto her tightly, watching as the motherly smile faded, falling into dust. As the body disintegrated into ashes, the men bowed their heads, praying for Mary's never-ending peace within Paradise.
Jeremiah signed release forms and walked out the door with one less person than he wanted to. He thought the birth of this child would be a happy event, the Samantha's birth would be an occasion the he could celebrate with his wife.
Now he is to celebrate it with only his brothers and Sam. It is not as bad as it seems, though. For Mary is a child, being born right now, who will run across Jeremiah's path in kindergarten class.

There I tried to make it not so...clumped together. But blogger does hate me so who knows. I had to make this post long with something so you got my story. Want a picture too? I neglected you so you can have a picture too. Okay fine. You don't get a picture right now 'cause blogger hates me. Or maybe it hates you...? Well whatever the reason, I'll post one later.

TWMA Ya'll!,
Sacred Secret

Holy Cow!

Wow it's been a while huh? Jeez. I didn't mean for it to go so long but Thanksgiving was a blast and I had so much on my mind. I'm sure you all forgive me. I'll get back to updating really soon. I'll try and post tommorow if the school's computers aren't being stupid. I'm going to sleep now though so, happy belated Thanksgiving all and I'll talk to you tommorow!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Happy 40th!

W00t! W00t! This is officially my 40th post! How Cool! *does a happy dance* How exciting how exciting!! So now I don't know what to do, this post should be really cool and exciting and full of good news! But...I'm not sure I have and exciting news for you...OH! Hey I know you get to know something that's kind of annoying! I'm two choirs right? And since I have two choirs it is a possibility that I will sing something I've sang before correct? Yes. And I'm okay with this. sBut why do I have to resing the songs I hate!??! Grrrrrr that's annoying! Gah, we're singing "African Noel" is both choirs and I hate that song...with a passion. But that isn't going to ruin my day, or this post! ^_^ Happy Birthday blog! Puwahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Now what? Uhm...wanna know a secret? I like cheese! Don't tell. lol I got that from Fange'.

I'M FULL! <---- Taco Bell commercial
Why buy a mattress anywhere else? *ping!* <--- Sleep Country
I hate you, you hate me! <--- Barney song spoof
Backstreets back, Alright! <---Uhm...
Out of the box! Out of the box! <--- Out of the box. Duh.
Happy cows come from california! <---Ahh...the power of cheese.


Okay, bye bye now!

Happy 40th, Mr. Blog!,
Sacred Secret!


P.S. <_<>_> TWMA ya'll.

"It's All Good."

lol I was thinking about my cousin saying that. And about him doing the cha cha. That was so freaking funny. But of course, There have been alot of funny things with them. Lie the creation and destruction of "Meximaru" the dancing mexican dog-man. That was great, and "calming" will forever be funny. The word "putty" too. lol I'm gonna get yelled at for putting all this on here but I don't care right now. I'm too happy. I don't know why either, I just am so I'm going to enjoy the feeling. The enjoyable feeling of being happy. It seems like I'm never happy anymore, by reading my recent posts. So I just want to be happy right now. For this single moment. here's a quote:

"To truly taste happiness you must experience everything but."

I like it. Z said that. It surprised me, 'cause he doesn't normally say stuff like that, but out it came and it was cool. Phury looked at him funny when he did but didn't think much of it. It just must be a day for "those times" you know? Those times when weird moods and ooc things happen? It's a day for those times! Wow, a whole 24 hours dedicated to doing stuff you wouldn't normally do. Saying things you wouldn't normally say, and talking to people you normally wouldn't! lol maybe I'm overly happy. I dunno. Oh! I had a dream last night, it was about Jesus. And him being a goat. And everyone who eats goat dying because they ate Jesus. And the people who drink goat milk turning into pigs because they drank Jesus, and the people who Sacrifice goats got sent to heaven 'cause that's what was going to happen anyway! lol didn't see that coming. The sacrifice thing is another inside joke. I couldn't tell you because it wouldn't make anysense unless you knew the people and blah blah blah. *smiles* It was funny though. SO I think I'm gonna go now and write a story. Yes I'm in class. But it doesn't matter! Let the writing flow, man! Let it flow!

:)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret!

[Insert Title Here]

I stayed home today. I feel sick, and tomorrow I'm gonna have to ask all my teachers what we did in class. Oi what a hassle. But I still have voice lessons today. I'm excited but my nose is stuffy which makes my voice sound weird. So, whatever. I'm listening to Evanesence. But it's their older stuff. My voice sounds like theirs. So I'm trying to get my voice to sound normal again. Right now I'm trying to remember what I was thinking about yesterday. It was something like how astonished I was that my math class was my favorite place to be in the whole school...I don't know why, but it is. I feel good in there.
Somtimes when I feel alone, more so then normal in my bed I place my hand to my stomach, just to feel my own heartbeating. It's a weird thing that I do, I know, but I do it anyway. It makes me feel less alone for some reason. Maybe because when I do that I can pretend I'm not alone at all. I can pretend I have the life I want. Someone ideal to share the bed with and a much smaller someone depending on me. Some I love before I even meet them or hold them in my arms. Have you ever done that? Probably not. I'm odd so I understand if you've never done any of the things I ask you if you've done. *sighs* I...I just want a child. They don't even have to be mine. But I need a child in the house, or someone I can go to that has a child. I'm in one of those maternal moods if you can't tell. Though only Fange' knows I have these moods. These times when I just need a child to talk to an hold on to. To make me feel like I'm doing something important....finally. Matter of fact, want to see the baby I love the most? Here:

It's blurry, so it doesn't do her justice. But she's a beautiful little girl. Telling you her name would be stupide, on my part, so you don't get to know. I watched her on monday and it was so great taking care of her. Watching her walk all around the house and play with her toys. Feeding her was an adventure! *smiles* I loved it though. So anyway.

Now I'm writing down some lyrics. They aren't my own, so don't get any ideas. I think I'll post again later today.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

Flat, Lifeless...

I don't know. I'm feeling...different. It's a new stage of my floaty moods. I've been here before but never so deeply. I'm not even sure I want to be writing this. My mind is so fogged. Such a great heaviness I bear right now...So I'm feeling alone. In crowds of people I feel alone and alone I feel small. Like a lost child, alone and afraid, almost ready to welcome anyone to hold me, but still clutching to the thought that I will find my Mother. But perhaps this is a test, the voices are always testing me so mayhap the current world wishes to test me as well. *closes her eyes* So be it. Alas, I finished my book. "Lover Awakened" was a beautiful book. I think I may read it again, and perhaps a third and fourth time. As I thought I grew to love Phury so much more. And Tohrment...oh my heart breaks for him. Zsadist became closer to my heart as I knew we would, but his female, Bella, has become a favorite too. Someone I didn't expect to get closer with is Butch, the human that hangs out with the Brotherhood. Him and Vishous live together in The Pit, like a guest house of the Brotherhoods mansion. They are not together. I loved the ending and then again I hated it. I still wonder the name of Zsadist child, whether or not he named her Nalla. In the book it says Nalla means something along the lines of 'beloved', so if he did name her that I wouldn't be too surprised. Anyway, I've got to go now. Farewell.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Not Much To Say

The title says it all. I really don't have that much to say. Do you want to see something? It's a half poem/song I wrote. It isn't done but I'm not going to finish it. I don't like it very much....

Home

Dying slowly
Decaying
Faster
One thing, I cannot try to do is
Live without you
How can this have happened?
How can fate do this to me?
What kind of sick game is
Destiny trying to play?
What have we done
To call this upon ourselves?
How could you leave me
To undo
All
This...?
It isn't as funny as it was
This twisted joke
I know its just a plea
Please, now
Can you
Hear me
Lord?
Can you hear me
calling
Home.
Oh, can you hear me calling?
Calling
Calling
This sweet anthem of what death should be.
My destiny your fate
Wrapped in a twisted
Game
Dying
Decaying
Twisting
Down
Calling
My Lord
And Your Savior
Home
I'm calling
Home
Can we go
Home
I want to go
Home.

Yeah so that's all. I don't like it. It isn't exactly my style which is probably why I don't like it. Do you? I'm trying to convince one of the voices voices to put their song on the other blog 'cause it's really cool. It's called............"Your Kiss" it's pretty cool I think. You don't have to. There is only one person who needs to approve of that song and it isn't you. Or me for that matter. *laughs* Well I guess I'm done now. Latah.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

"Spread your wings, and learn to fly in the cold, cold night sky."