One Thing..

HAPPY PHURY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn!

Nothin' special right now. I'm working on a story about my friend again. I stopped for a while because I had to stop thinking about his ass. But now I'm back on it and it's looking good. I also have an oral quiz (ha-ha-ha) in French class and I'm sweatin' cause I have not been practicing at all. But enough of my complaining. how have you all been? EEEEKK! I can't wait until tommorrow because we're going to the beach!!!! (Hawaii really but hey!) I'm so excited. Von and his woman were going to come but...something "came up" lol if you knew. If you knew. So it will just be me and John. Hopefully. *crosses her fingers* Like I love having company when I'm out with him but singular is awesome too. Double dating is fun. With my friend and her b/f. It's mega fun. Haahaaa. Anyway have an awesome memorial weekend guys and tell me what you did! Gotta go play Wii now with the fam. Peace!

Wii Like To Play,
Sacred Secret

Blue Ribbon

Hey. I know I haven't been the best of host as of late but I'm seriously swamped with stuff. Like I bombed a math test on Monday-Tuesday. Like totally BOMBED it. Absolutely no chance of getting that one back. It sucks. Then today I was late to school and since I have French class first period I missed that class and I had a quiz in it. So I missed that too. Gonna have to stay after school sometime and take it. Freakin! Ahhhh! Anyway. So I've watched a couple movies since I posted last and "Juno" is amazingly awesome. Like I love it sooo much. Hooray for "Juno" !!!! Also, I've seen Apocalypto and that was awesome too. Hooray!

On another note, Nightmare's birthday is coming up. He'll be getting into the terrible twos. And it shows. -_-; God does it show. He's being such a brat lately. For instance. I got rid of my bunk bed and now I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor, true? and he gets up on my bed, strutin' like he's cool, then lays down, rolls over, almost falls off the bed. Then what does he dig his claws into so he doesn't fall? My arm of course!!! Yeah. It hurt. But it was like one in the morning so I couldn't scream. I just gasped kinda loud and waited for him to get his balance so he could retract his claws from my flesh. Who else is there to catch you but your parents? Those first few years anyway...

On the topic of parents. This guy I know at school. I don't know him very well he hits on me sometimes and we talk in French but otherwise we're not very close. He came to school today, (we have the same lunch so I saw him then) and his arm was covered in bruises. I was like "Oh my god what happened?" Mind you, this boy is my color. A little lighter but not much. And these bruises were extremely bright on him. He then sat down and told me how his dad beat him the night before with a belt, because he got four F's. Now I understand the need for discipline in this situation. Beating the crap out of him is NOT okay. I told him how I sympathized, I inquired as to if this had happened before, if he had told anyone previously about it. He said he dared not to. If the authorities came to their house his dad would go after him again, with or without the police. He proceeded to show me the larger, more painful bruises and welts, WELTS on his back and the back of his legs. I noticed that he was wearing unusually baggy clothes today. Probably to conceal the evidence.

My heart bled for him. Screamed out in protest that anyone could do this to their child. It isn't right. It's just...so wrong. So very wrong and unnecessary. I am so blessed that I have a loving, stable home. And I thank the stars everyday that I do. Because there are so many children out there that do not. And I feel so bad. To make matters worse for this boy, today is his birthday. He got nothing. I sheepishly told him I would bring him something tomorrow but he waved it off. He said he is used to not getting anything.

This is another thing I understand. But I think everyone should be able to celebrate, happily, the day they were born. They day they were blessed with life. And those who have touched their live and they in return touched someone else's.

God...I could go on forever about this. Child Abuse and Harassment is not an okay thing to do. I don't care who you are. Children are small, and defenseless. Helpless to do anything against the strength of a grown man or woman. Thousands of children die everyday because of child abuse. And even if it isn't continued abuse, children blame themselves for everything. If their parent is mad about something and takes it out on their child, all the while the question "What did I do?" will come through their heads. When they did nothing but simply be a child. Children are not little adults. You can't dress them up in formal adult clothing and expect them to act that way. They are meant to learn and play. To laugh and engage in mischievous little acts. Make friends, go to school, do arts and crafts. Adults are meant to guide and teach and nourish that little spirit. Not beat it down into submission. I could go on and on. but instead I want to show you something.

Murder is the ultimate form of child abuse. Multiple burns and human bites were only part of what killed this ten-month-old infant. His father was convicted of the killing.
Cited from : http://www.violence.de/prescott/hustler-new/article.html

I know this is brutal. I know, most of you already know that hitting and abusing a child is a horrible crime, not only of law but of moral. I know. but for those who don't I want to bring this to their attention. Stop the circles of child abuse. Save a little life.


Blue Ribbons For Kids,
Sacred Secret

Do It

I keep thinking that the need for posting will come back to me. But it hasn't yet. I've been working on a new series like thing of writingdom. It's about a friend of mine. He's awesome. And I end up upsetting him every time I talk to him. So it sucks. But I think I'm helping. Pah! Anywayz. Right now I'm watching Fraggle Rock. A hella old ass show, my mom used to watch when she was a kid. Well a teenager anyway. It's a pretty corny show, but it's got cool music. lol if that makes any sense. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a long time but I haven't wanted to. So I'll see ya when I see ya.

Last to know, Last to show,
Sacred Secret

Sorry About That!

Whoa! It's been forever guys! And I have nothing to tell you! Look I'll admit...I've been cheating on you. With my Laptop. His name his James and he is a little younger than you are...alright! So he's a lot younger! But he treats me well! He's faster than you too! He doesn't have problems with loading, and he is easier to use. Look I don't want to argue with you about this. I just thought you would want to know! Don't yell at me! We have nothing left together! I'm sorry! No, I take that back I'm NOT sorry! You were a jerk to me! You never posted when I wanted you to and then when you did it looked bad! I couldn't handle it anymore so I found someone new. We've had a lot of good times together and I hope we can still be friends after this. Please? I don't want to end it like this Murphy! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(anyway school has been fine, everything is fine. Hi lover. The Counselor has a girlfriend. I'll tell you about that later. Hm what else? Oh wait..)OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! It can't end this way! I'll kill you so that no one else can have you! Wait! Wait! That's not necessary! Really I'll come back to you I promise! NO! You've already been using him haven't you? How many times have your hands touched his keys!? Tell me! I-I-I don't know! Murphy just calm down! AIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! (ooo that had to hurt. Anyhow, how many of you read Lost Words? The blog I mean. I'm sure there's a book out there too. But you should read it (the blog) and get into the foxy loop. I love those too a lot so check them out! I think they might even post more than I do!) Murphy why!?! WHY!??! OH GOD! WAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! W-W-WAAAAHHHH!!! *cries hysterically* You didn't have to do it! I would have come back to you! I know we could have worked it out somehow! NOOOOO!!! (jeez...drama much. Those two are always fighting. Peh. Oh Nightmare is doing well. For those of you who tuned in during his bad break. When he was attacked by those dogs? Well he's sitting here in my lap all twelve pounds of him, rendering my typing skills almost useless.) *runs off screaming carrying Murphy's body with her* I know I can fix you!! Who Knows Alchemy!?!?!
.....okay then...anyway back to normal stuff. Maybe I'll post a picture of him when I get the chance. Which should be relatively soon. He's two now. God he's gotten so big since I got him. But I love him more and more all the time. Though the scratching could occur less...Don't even think I'm getting him declawed! That's just mean! Besides, the cats I know would be pissed. They all probably winced at the thought! (sorry bout that guys) Jeez some people...anywayz I'm gonna try to get a picture of Night for you so you can see how big he is. Later Gator.

Flyin In The Wrong Direction,
Sacred Secret

P.S: MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION DOESN'T COUNT ANYMORE!!!! =]

Long Time No...Sniff?

I don't know, I'm really just here to tell you that I'm alive and I don't want to tell you guys a whole lot right now. Me and Tyler broke up. I can't say I'm not happy. Because I am. I really am. I like being single, and being held down in a boring relationship isn't fun to me. I'm going to see if I can 'find' one more suitable for my tastes after being single for a little while. It's more fun when I can shamelessly flirt with anyone. It's fun to go places and check guys out without feeling guilty. And I may be an asshole for going on pity dates but I feel bad if I break up with them. Anyway, I'm listening to "Go on Girl" by Ne-Yo right now. It's a hot song. It reminds me of.....nevermind ^_^ there are a couple other dongs by Ne-Yo that remind me of him as well. Because he sings them a lot. But this song also reminds me of V, because it fits him. I gotta go now, I'ma go talk to the guys. Because I have nothing better to do until I gotta work.

(last night by the way? ROCKED)

I'm Rite,
Sacred Secret

Oh My Dear God Why!?!?!

Why? Why God Why would you bestow this HORRIBLE thing upon one of your greatest creations?! Women do not deserve this! CRAMPS SHOULD NOT EXIST! This I will tell you over and over again because it is true! The bane of my existence would be these spasms of pain that shoot through your entire abdomen so bad it makes you curl into a ball and fall on the floor drying wanting to die because you hurt so fucking bad. WHY DO THESE EXIST?! I want to know what MORON even discovered them to exist! If they didn't have a name maybe they would be easier to deny. From now on just refer to them as "Oh! Damn that hurt!" or something. So maybe we females can make the bodily world a better place for the generations to come. I've been at home ALL DAY because of these fucking things. Trust me if I could have moved I would have gone to school. I have three tests tomorrow that I could have been studying for today, god knows what I messed in french class! Math is forever confusing missing any of that is bad news. We aren't doing too much in Social Studies, English I'm working on right now. And P.E can kiss my ass. I didn't suit up yesterday because I lose the damn key to my locker and then today I didn't come so that's fifteen points off this week. Plus whatever else that fat old whorish, sexist chauvinistic pig marked me down for. I don't even want to be here right now, but I know no matter where I go it's gonna suck and I don't want to put someone else through this too so I'll just stay. What use is leaving? Anyway.......ow GOD! NEVERMIND!

F******* A!,
Sacred Secret

P.S: *sighs* Sorry for cursing so much....

Hey Guys

I don't have anything to say.

Hi guys. Can't wait until tonight.

See you all later

I accept your offer.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: If you don't know, don't speak.

I Love You

You ARE beautiful.



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I Love Your Body,
Sacred Secret

Quickie

Hey guys it's Christmas and I had a small break so I'm telling you guys I'm alive and well. The Voices have updated their blogs, so check them out. If you read them.


MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS!

Tootles!



Sacred Secret

P.S: What'd you get?

Another Color Quiz Check-Up

For those of you long term blog readers, you know I've done this before. This is the Color Quiz. Take it! Here are my newest results...


Sacred Secrets Existing Situation:
The existing situation contains critical or dangerous elements for which it is imperative that some solution be found. This may lead to sudden, even reckless, decisions. Self-willed and rejects any advice from others.

Sacred Secrets Stress Sources:
An existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory, but she feels unable to change it to bring about the sense of belonging which she needs. Unwilling to expose her vulnerability, she therefore continues to resist this state of affairs, but feels dependent on the attachment. This not only depresses her. but makes her irritable and impatient, producing considerable restlessness and the urge to get away from the situation, either actually or, at least, mentally. Ability to concentrate may suffer.

Sacred Secrets Restrained Characteristics:
Becomes distressed when her needs or desires are misunderstood and feels that she has no one to turn to or rely on. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Sacred Secrets Desired Objective:
Wants to establish herself and make an impact despite unfavorable circumstances and a general lack of appreciation.

Sacred Secrets Actual Problem:
Anxiety and restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced stress. She tries to escape from these by denying their existence, concealing her dissatisfaction behind a proud but illusory claim to self-sufficiency and independence.


Well that's it. Remember it's just for fun. Tell me what you think....I guess. Everything is good. No need to ask. ttyl. Byebye.

Hi Boyz,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I don't really have any idea what's going on.

I live the perfect Life

I live the perfect life.

I live somewhere in the suburbs of some nice little town. I go to a uniformed private school. My parents are happy and live together. I see my dad all the time but mostly he's away on business. I'm okay with that. My little brother goes to a private school in a different state because that school better fits his needs. My grandma and grandpa are happy together and they live together in a small house. My grandma bakes cookies all the time and loves all of her children and grandchildren equally no matter their age. My grandpa is retired and wears a bathrobe in the morning , smokes a pipe, and reads the newspaper everyday to critique the world in an observant way. My cousins are in college studying to be doctors and lawyers. I will follow in their footsteps. We have a perfect yard and our home life is great. I go to a wonderful school with all of my friends. My teachers are nice and I have A's in all my classes. I have a wonderful boyfriend. I can tell my best friend anything, we share all our secrets, she's just like my sister. Every summer my family goes on vacation to somewhere exotic like last summer we went to Hawaii, this summer we plan on going to Africa to visit the rain forests. My dad wants us to be well rounded in our travels. I speak three languages and I am working on my fourth right now.

This is the perfect world I live in in my dreams. I have created this world because on the occasion that I visit it I can predict exactly what is going to happen. In my little world of sheltered and naive people I have no Voices. I am a mindless zombie and in this little world of major conformity I am obliviously happy because I am ignorant to any kind of pains. I have never fallen down or scraped my hands or knees. I have never failed at anything. I have never been poor or without anything. I have never talked about sex or abortions or politics or poverty or genocide or anything or the sort. You know why? Me either. I don't even know why I'm writing this, telling you all this. None of it matters because I don't understand it. Don't reply. Don't tell me some weird ass bullshit I've heard thirty thousand times before because like everything else that is said to me I take it to heart until someone else shoots down myself esteem to what seems to be beyond recreation. Then I listen to someone else's bullshit and *sighs*.....whatever anyway. It doesn't matter. I'm going to go lay around in my bed for about three hours. until I fall asleep to stay in my dream world for a while. Then when I wake up I'll go to school and do the same thing I've been doing everyday of my life. I'll fake it.

I don't have any problems. I live a perfect life. My problems are truly insignificant I have no reason to complain or bitch or moan or gripe about anything because compared to people with real problems I am fine. I am perfect. My life is careless and fancy free. I need no help. I am not dependent. I can make my own decisions and someday I will go off and have a family of my own that is just like my dream world. Deep deep under the surface we will have the most fucked up problems you could ever imagine. That's alright, because I'll still be perfect. And that's all that matters. I don't understand what's going on. I'm not going to reread this to make sure it makes sense for your benefit. I'll spell check it though, so that when I come back to this in a couple of weeks and read it I'll be able to just barely make out what was going through my head this night. I'm going to go now. And maybe in the morning I'll be perfect again.

Sincerely,
Fallacy
aka Sacred Secret
aka Half-Witt
aka BooBoo
aka Baby Girl
aka Sweetie
aka Babysitter lady
aka Cynthia
or whatever you want to call me.

P.S: Like that wasn't enough for you?

TGIF!

This post really isn't about anything but its FRIDAY! WOOT WOOT! lol every time I say WOOT it reminds me of Hito. Because he used to say WOO allllllllll the time. For any occasion, he even had different versions of it. It was hilarious. Anyway, I want to have a party. It's HAT DAY at North Hill and so I took pictures with the kids and ran around telling everyone that its hat day. It was fun. Now I'm waiting for Fange' to get here and wondering how I'm going to tell her things. See this weekend we are going to go to The Victorian Christmas show and then on Sunday we're going to my boyfriends soccer game. I really want to go and watch him. He's really good at soccer and he likes it a lot. lol he's been trying to get me to go forever now, so I finally just said yes, because we aren't going to the winter ball together. Why? 'Cause I have a concert that night (like last year) and so I think he's just going to have dinner with us (Mom, Grandma, Fange', Myself) If Fange's comes over that weekend. Which she probably will because she doesn't miss any of my concerts unless she absolutely has to. But thats all fine and dandy. I just hope they can get along. Tyler doesn't have any problem with Fange' but she still has a grudge against him I think. I can never tell. But I DO understand why she doesn't like him. I mean she's allowed to hold a grudge, but...oh I don't know. Never mind I'm going to shut up cause It doesn't even matter. OH YEAH! I have good news. The Counselor has a girlfriend. Well she's not technically his girlfriend yet, they haven't known each other very long, but soon. He's already really protective of her but she's still kind of involved with her "ex" they still live together and they still "play" together but they're not going out. She's really quite and when she does talk her voice is really soft and kinda raspy like she doesn't use it a lot which she probably doesn't. The Counselor loves her voice. Like really he does. He smiles every time she says his name. It's cute. So to give them their time to get to know each other I've been hanging out with Hito and Kin. And Williem and his crew. Speaking of Hito, those of you that know about the event, Mae woke up the other day after being unconscious for about a week. She's doing alright now, and the pHd's are deciding on whether or not she'll be able to have kids again. She doesn't remember what happened she does know she's lost something, but Hito is unsure when to tell her. It will be hard on him. :( . But Hito is strong, and so is Mae, so they'll get through it. Alright well I think I'm done now. GO HAVE A PARTY BECAUSE ITS HAT DAY AND I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Latah ^_^

TGIF,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Who am I dating?

Happy Turkey Day

YO! omg it's been foooreevvveerrr! I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever but not a whole lot has happened to post about. Which is a good thing right? Normally I just post about my problems because if I were you, the reader, thats all I would find interesting. Humans seem to be interested in the pain of others. Even the most sympathetic ones and interested. It's just a common curiosity I think all of homo-sapiens share. But its okay, I mean I'm the same way, so... Right! How are you all? I'm doing well (as earlier stated) me and my boyfriend are happy (for those that care) and school life is great for the most part. I got my report card and goes as such:

French 1: A
Geometry: B
Integrated Science 2: A
English: B
World History: A
Quality Fitness: B

Cool huh?! I am soooo happy, you don't even KNOW! lol I've been listening to dumb music this week. You can listen to it with me if you want to and visit my YouTube account. Leave me a comment when you get there too, please! That is, if you go.

Sacred Secrets Video's!

I hope you go. If you don't, no hard feelings. What are you all doing for Thanksgiving? I'm going to meh sisters house and stuffing my face. God I love Thanksgiving, for multiple reasons; I get to eat, spend time with family, get out of school, party, sleep, and cooler still is Christmas is almost here too! I know most of you are like "Oh, and your not going to post again until Christmas, huh?" Okay, okay! I know I deserve this. Hounding everyone to read my friggin' blog and when they do I don't update. Well I'm Sorry! But if there's nothing to say can you blame me? I hate reading other people's blogs who only post three sentences and sign off. That's annoying, when I read someones blog I want to learn something about them, or sympathize, feel joy or something. I don't want "Their still alive? That's good, next website." Y'know? I want to feel something when I read it. But maybe that's just the writer in me coming out. Speaking of writing! I'm conducting a "thing" with the Voices. I picked a select few and let their significant others pick out "modern human names" for them. (i.e: boys for girls, girls for boys) and it turned out interestingly well. I would list the names they got but I can't. It's confidential. And if I list them the Girls will know their new names and so will the Boys. I can't do that sooo no luck for you. The only one that might get to know is Fange'. But I have to be careful there too because almost everything she knows, they know. I'm the same way. I tend not to keep anything from the Voices. Sometimes that is an inconvenience however because ALL of them have enormous mouths and can't seem to keep them shut. But I love them all the same. Well I have school tomorrow and it's 11 o'clock. So peace, and happy eatings.

Kiss Kiss,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Your secret today: I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico.

P.P.S: J/K. I've noticed people who usually piss me off tend to be pretty.

Possibly the Best Worst day of my life...

I feel like I've let down everyone today. I let down my son, my friends, my boyfriend, my mom, my sister, and myself. If any of you disagree I don't care. Just let me live out my sorrow for a moment. Oh! And shout out to Suketsu & Family. I love you guys for all you've done in the past 72 hours. You guys rox my sox hard. I mean it. HARD. I have a lot of homework and yet not a lot. School is going well and weird and yeah. Same old shit. I can pretty much close my eyes and make it to each of my classes I'm so used to it now. But I know if something in my schedule changes I'll tweak out because I'm not friends with change. Sudden drastic changes scare the f*** out of me. I don't know why but they do. Deaths and births don't bother me however in the least. But people moving away, changes in my everyday schedule or my immediate house-hold freak me out. I've gotten my fear under control so that I can hide when I'm tweaking out a bit, but there are still somethings...anyway! Well my grandpa is taking me out to dinner and I'm going to go get dressed. See you guys later.

Get Well Soon, Night,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Please, for the love of God, please don't be mad.
P.P.S: Thank you for understanding.

Hey peeps! I'm bored call me. It's only nine and its dead quite around here. Well a quickie update:

Takin the PSAT on Wednesday
Test in French bumped up to Thursday
Favorite color is still dark red
Favorite color combo slowly switching from black and purple to green and black.

Other than that I'm BORED AND NOT A LOT OF TIRED
I think I'm going to call Fange' and see whats doing. Maybe catch up on the HW.
So yeah. sorry this isn't longer. But...I'm bored.

Til Pigs Fly,
Sacred Secret

P.S: At school I try to remember what I do, the choices I make, and the things I say. Then I reflect on the during the bus ride home.If I feel I've dissapointed myself, or stepped out of my own moral boundaries I vow to apologize to whoever I wronged.

Do I Really?

Current Song: "I'll Cover You" --- Rent


I don't think I do but I'm not going to say anything for fear of being eaten by all of the people that think otherwise. I'm nervous and excited and dreading the time...but I'm so tied up I guess I'm floating around in a weird euphoria. Just floating and nothing more. If I'm not insanely tired I'll get on when I get back and tell you how it went. If your wondering what it is, its Homecoming. And the game yesterday? We lost. Big time. Like Forty something to twenty something. How gay is that? Dammit! I messed up the makeup again. Maybe I'll send you a picture if you reall want to see. But not right now. Later, when my mom puts the pics on her MySpace. So yeah like I said....lots with the nervousness. I think I should probably eat something before I go...I don't know if he's taking me out to eat or not though...so should I? *sigh* I wish I could have a handful of the Voices in my purse the whole time so I can ask them for advice. I know I can have them in my head but....I want a pocket pal!! Oh well. The Counselor says I'll be fine and Hito said I look like a goddess, *smiles* I loved the look in his eyes. Kin said I shouldn't go because Tyler doesn't deserve to look at me dressed this way. But Kin is protective. Batman was hitting on me more than usual, so was Adrian and Vaun. One of Zenisha's darkies was too, which is weird. Well I guess I should get going and eliminate the Voices that are going to make me more nervous and keep the ones I'll need for advice. On top of the other stuff I need to be doing so yeah...God I'm scared..

Waiting For Tonight,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Please, please, please don't let me down....

Welcome To The Bloody Parade...

So I'm here talking about nothing and everything at once. Figuring that if I can just say it and get it off my chest then my soul and mind will not be so heavy laden with guilt. Alas...I have a feeling I won't be able to attain this bliss. I'm going to continue listening to my new favorite song "Falling Inside The Black" by Skillet. It's a good song. I will admit it's a little emo but I like it so shut up. Sorry I'm being an ass. And the was I was speaking earlier is just a type I fall into when I'm writing sometimes. So just excuse me for that. I honestly don't have a lot to talk about. I want to see Suketsu's kids. I haven't seen them in a long time and I really want to know what has gone down to make Ryuu sound so grievous. Or maybe I'm just imaging his pain, but I'm pretty sure there is something wrong. Also, to remind myself I'll write it here, I have to get so many birthday presents for the people with upcoming birthdays. And the new ones that are coming. I hope the wolves return soon and in good health. I want to see the Brothers. I want to see everyone. I've been holing myself up in The Counselors office (his house) for a while now and he looks at me with concern. When I'm not with him I'm with Fange' and Sy helping them with what I can. Speaking of him he's doing well last I checked and should be coming home soon. Gods I hate the Italian doctors right now. They know nothing! D.C knows more than they do and she's barely almost seven. *sighs* But whatever they will get replaced soon enough. You know how vamps can't get sick from human diseases or sicknesses? Well apparently they aren't immune to the illnesses of the Mist. Four civilian vamps I know have come down with flu and fever after reportedly talking to someone of the Mist. The three I do know, know nothing of this sickness and are almost fearful of it. And whatever makes Mist afraid makes me outrageously nervous and scared for my life. But they don't seem that worried just a little like it might circulate their house and get the l****e k**'* sick. So yeah. Oh my mom is totally enthralled in the BDB right now.. of course so am I but she's a n00b she doesn't know anything yet, but she's almost done with the first book. I started the fifth today but I was already on page fifteen cause I actually started the day we got it (Sept. 25) so yeah... but I'll post more about that later (I'm going to come talk to you V..I have a...some questions ^_^) Alright I'm done. Peace easy fo' sheezy.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: When I don't get that maternal fix my heart feels like it's breaking and my mind says I'm losing my purpose. I know its not true and I'll keep on living but I surround myself with children each day to stave off that horrid feeling. It's like a drug I can't get rid of because I'm afraid of the pain...Sometimes...I am so pathetic...

Hey Peeps

I'm not posting about much, just sayin' Yo. 'Cause I'm tired and I gotta study for french class still. My weekend was good. Fange' and me walked down to the marina and back (well we took the bus half way back) And truly it was some of the Voices so yeah. I'm going to start giving them credit where credit is due. So I'm gonna get. Tell me how your weekend was everyone! I hope your monday is just as good as my Saturday!!! Peace

Stayin Above The Water,
Sacred Secret

Thinking About Tomorrow...

Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't posted in forever. For some reason I thought that if I just kept checking my own blog something new would pop up and tell me something about myself. The Counselor corrected my foolishness, and so here I am posting. Ever since school started I've been really tired and my knee has been jacked up and shite. Well, I'm tired and my mom wants to give me a friggin' horse pill for the pain in my knee. And I don't want to stop because I haven't posted in so long but I can't focus...and I haven't written anything in forever except for the stuff on my laptop and I can't transfer that to here. Maybe I can find a picture for you. There that one's cool right? It reminds me of Yukiko, because of the bright green eyes. Her eyes are so pretty, and her son's are almost the same color. Want another? This one reminds me of....guess! You'll never guess never mind. But it reminds me of Rehmidy. I don't know why, but it does. I've been talking to her a lot lately...she makes me sad, but she also makes me appreciate my life and the people around me. She's been very sickly ever since....well if you don't know then shame on you. And recently she's taken a liking to coming here for about two classes everyday, and then she leaves and Fherosity carries her around until she falls asleep in his arms. He is very worried about her and she refuses to see anyone, medically I mean, about it. Fherosity won't push her on it because he loves her so, and I think he's worried about her health as much as her brother was...no as much as her brother is. I'm very sure that he is watching her, however disapproving his gaze maybe. But all of us know how much he loves her and I think his passing is taking it's toll. Not that it didn't directly the day of but now...*Sigh* I'm going to stop, and go check on her and get to work because despite my sleepiness I still have work to do. Yawn yawn. Goodnight everyone. Sorry again for not posting sooner.

Waiting On The World To Change,

Sacred Secret

P.S: When I'm around people who think little of them self, it makes me think that I am even worse off than they are. Even if there's nothing truly wrong....do you understand?