Sick...?

So I'm sick. As an intermission to my poem and my weird Jesus story/dream. I thought since I'm feeling like death and sitting at the computer listening to music, I should blog. Everything other than me feeling like shit is good. there isn't a whole lot to tell you...if you give a shit, Tyler is dating Abby. .... Yeah thats what I said. But its all good. They're...happy. So thats all that matters. I was typing with one hand for a while and things were moving really slowly.
Its WASL week, in other news. And I don't have to get up until 930 (technically) 'cause school starts, for me, at 10. But I went today at normal time (its an option) and wandered around until I ran into a friend and we ended up in the Ceramics room with another friend. We made dumb stuff and *crosses fingers* hopefully they'll get fired. ^_^ That was fun, and tomorrow I'll probably go in at the same time to do it again. 'Cause it was really fun. How did your past weekend go? I don't want to talk about mine. What are you doing next weekend? Thats cool...Uh....The song I'm listening to right now is;
"1,2,3,4" by the Plain White T's.
Normally, I can't stand them. But its an alright song. And I had to see what the hype was about. Well I guess, I'll go now and maybe lie down or something. Ugh....

Twma,
Sacred Secret

Pssst!!!

Hey dude! Its snowing! In December! Holy cow! No really like, its snowing. We've had late start all week, yesterday school was closed. Today was late start then it started snowing hella hard and everybody went home. HAHAHA its awesome! Anyway, I figured I'd post again 'cause I have some time and nothing to do yet. I can't wait until Christmas, by the way. Its gonna be awesome. GIFTS. To be given! And gotten I'm sure but I'm not excited about those anymore. I want to show give gifts and see faces. YES! Its gonna be awesome. Now I have gifts for all the important people. My mom, Hito,Fange', John, Tyler, Lafa.* Everyone. All is well. ^_^ I'm excited!!! WOOHOO! I'm thinking that my gifts won't be as cool as other gifts but its the thought that counts right? MHM! I'm excited excited excited!!! I hope I'll be able to make it to Fange's this weekend. Cross your fingers!! Well I'm just here to tell you about the snow. Maybe I can get inspired today and look to a deeply neglected Cael. (SORRY! :( ) yup yup. See what I can do. So much free time, don't know what to do with myself. Keep it chill.

Bada bah bah bah!,
Sacred Secret

We've Got Spirit, Yes We Do!

Okay so there's this sign in the hallway at my school that says "Spirit takes ya high!"
Tell me honestly.
Doesn't that make you think of drugs?
And the sign is on bright paper with paint spatter all around it and crazy flowery stuff and stuff.
Tell me it doesn't remind you of drugs! Hippies and drugs dude. Really.
Anyway. DUDE! I'm A GOD-AUNT! lol *heart star squee*

lol you're probably like tres wtf I know but my guy-friends friend (yay Chels) said that I can be the god-aunt of her baby boy. I' m so super excited!!! Squee!! I want to get him a bunch of cutesy little baby things. She'll have to tell me when her shower is, 'cause I wanna go (if she'll let me)

Let's seee. School is fine (IB IS A B*TCH), life in general is almost puuuurrfect. It'll be better after the "flow". Y'know. But anywho....the Voices are goodish. There was some recent weirdness. Lots of fighting and a couple of people got hurt but nothing big. Everyone is fine now. I'd tell you more but I don't want to anymore. So I'll see you all later. Byeeee!!


Can't Wait!,
Sacred Secret

Blue Ribbon

Hey. I know I haven't been the best of host as of late but I'm seriously swamped with stuff. Like I bombed a math test on Monday-Tuesday. Like totally BOMBED it. Absolutely no chance of getting that one back. It sucks. Then today I was late to school and since I have French class first period I missed that class and I had a quiz in it. So I missed that too. Gonna have to stay after school sometime and take it. Freakin! Ahhhh! Anyway. So I've watched a couple movies since I posted last and "Juno" is amazingly awesome. Like I love it sooo much. Hooray for "Juno" !!!! Also, I've seen Apocalypto and that was awesome too. Hooray!

On another note, Nightmare's birthday is coming up. He'll be getting into the terrible twos. And it shows. -_-; God does it show. He's being such a brat lately. For instance. I got rid of my bunk bed and now I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor, true? and he gets up on my bed, strutin' like he's cool, then lays down, rolls over, almost falls off the bed. Then what does he dig his claws into so he doesn't fall? My arm of course!!! Yeah. It hurt. But it was like one in the morning so I couldn't scream. I just gasped kinda loud and waited for him to get his balance so he could retract his claws from my flesh. Who else is there to catch you but your parents? Those first few years anyway...

On the topic of parents. This guy I know at school. I don't know him very well he hits on me sometimes and we talk in French but otherwise we're not very close. He came to school today, (we have the same lunch so I saw him then) and his arm was covered in bruises. I was like "Oh my god what happened?" Mind you, this boy is my color. A little lighter but not much. And these bruises were extremely bright on him. He then sat down and told me how his dad beat him the night before with a belt, because he got four F's. Now I understand the need for discipline in this situation. Beating the crap out of him is NOT okay. I told him how I sympathized, I inquired as to if this had happened before, if he had told anyone previously about it. He said he dared not to. If the authorities came to their house his dad would go after him again, with or without the police. He proceeded to show me the larger, more painful bruises and welts, WELTS on his back and the back of his legs. I noticed that he was wearing unusually baggy clothes today. Probably to conceal the evidence.

My heart bled for him. Screamed out in protest that anyone could do this to their child. It isn't right. It's just...so wrong. So very wrong and unnecessary. I am so blessed that I have a loving, stable home. And I thank the stars everyday that I do. Because there are so many children out there that do not. And I feel so bad. To make matters worse for this boy, today is his birthday. He got nothing. I sheepishly told him I would bring him something tomorrow but he waved it off. He said he is used to not getting anything.

This is another thing I understand. But I think everyone should be able to celebrate, happily, the day they were born. They day they were blessed with life. And those who have touched their live and they in return touched someone else's.

God...I could go on forever about this. Child Abuse and Harassment is not an okay thing to do. I don't care who you are. Children are small, and defenseless. Helpless to do anything against the strength of a grown man or woman. Thousands of children die everyday because of child abuse. And even if it isn't continued abuse, children blame themselves for everything. If their parent is mad about something and takes it out on their child, all the while the question "What did I do?" will come through their heads. When they did nothing but simply be a child. Children are not little adults. You can't dress them up in formal adult clothing and expect them to act that way. They are meant to learn and play. To laugh and engage in mischievous little acts. Make friends, go to school, do arts and crafts. Adults are meant to guide and teach and nourish that little spirit. Not beat it down into submission. I could go on and on. but instead I want to show you something.

Murder is the ultimate form of child abuse. Multiple burns and human bites were only part of what killed this ten-month-old infant. His father was convicted of the killing.
Cited from : http://www.violence.de/prescott/hustler-new/article.html

I know this is brutal. I know, most of you already know that hitting and abusing a child is a horrible crime, not only of law but of moral. I know. but for those who don't I want to bring this to their attention. Stop the circles of child abuse. Save a little life.


Blue Ribbons For Kids,
Sacred Secret

Oh My Dear God Why!?!?!

Why? Why God Why would you bestow this HORRIBLE thing upon one of your greatest creations?! Women do not deserve this! CRAMPS SHOULD NOT EXIST! This I will tell you over and over again because it is true! The bane of my existence would be these spasms of pain that shoot through your entire abdomen so bad it makes you curl into a ball and fall on the floor drying wanting to die because you hurt so fucking bad. WHY DO THESE EXIST?! I want to know what MORON even discovered them to exist! If they didn't have a name maybe they would be easier to deny. From now on just refer to them as "Oh! Damn that hurt!" or something. So maybe we females can make the bodily world a better place for the generations to come. I've been at home ALL DAY because of these fucking things. Trust me if I could have moved I would have gone to school. I have three tests tomorrow that I could have been studying for today, god knows what I messed in french class! Math is forever confusing missing any of that is bad news. We aren't doing too much in Social Studies, English I'm working on right now. And P.E can kiss my ass. I didn't suit up yesterday because I lose the damn key to my locker and then today I didn't come so that's fifteen points off this week. Plus whatever else that fat old whorish, sexist chauvinistic pig marked me down for. I don't even want to be here right now, but I know no matter where I go it's gonna suck and I don't want to put someone else through this too so I'll just stay. What use is leaving? Anyway.......ow GOD! NEVERMIND!

F******* A!,
Sacred Secret

P.S: *sighs* Sorry for cursing so much....

Happy Turkey Day

YO! omg it's been foooreevvveerrr! I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever but not a whole lot has happened to post about. Which is a good thing right? Normally I just post about my problems because if I were you, the reader, thats all I would find interesting. Humans seem to be interested in the pain of others. Even the most sympathetic ones and interested. It's just a common curiosity I think all of homo-sapiens share. But its okay, I mean I'm the same way, so... Right! How are you all? I'm doing well (as earlier stated) me and my boyfriend are happy (for those that care) and school life is great for the most part. I got my report card and goes as such:

French 1: A
Geometry: B
Integrated Science 2: A
English: B
World History: A
Quality Fitness: B

Cool huh?! I am soooo happy, you don't even KNOW! lol I've been listening to dumb music this week. You can listen to it with me if you want to and visit my YouTube account. Leave me a comment when you get there too, please! That is, if you go.

Sacred Secrets Video's!

I hope you go. If you don't, no hard feelings. What are you all doing for Thanksgiving? I'm going to meh sisters house and stuffing my face. God I love Thanksgiving, for multiple reasons; I get to eat, spend time with family, get out of school, party, sleep, and cooler still is Christmas is almost here too! I know most of you are like "Oh, and your not going to post again until Christmas, huh?" Okay, okay! I know I deserve this. Hounding everyone to read my friggin' blog and when they do I don't update. Well I'm Sorry! But if there's nothing to say can you blame me? I hate reading other people's blogs who only post three sentences and sign off. That's annoying, when I read someones blog I want to learn something about them, or sympathize, feel joy or something. I don't want "Their still alive? That's good, next website." Y'know? I want to feel something when I read it. But maybe that's just the writer in me coming out. Speaking of writing! I'm conducting a "thing" with the Voices. I picked a select few and let their significant others pick out "modern human names" for them. (i.e: boys for girls, girls for boys) and it turned out interestingly well. I would list the names they got but I can't. It's confidential. And if I list them the Girls will know their new names and so will the Boys. I can't do that sooo no luck for you. The only one that might get to know is Fange'. But I have to be careful there too because almost everything she knows, they know. I'm the same way. I tend not to keep anything from the Voices. Sometimes that is an inconvenience however because ALL of them have enormous mouths and can't seem to keep them shut. But I love them all the same. Well I have school tomorrow and it's 11 o'clock. So peace, and happy eatings.

Kiss Kiss,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Your secret today: I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico.

P.P.S: J/K. I've noticed people who usually piss me off tend to be pretty.

The Burger, The Shake...But No Fries...

In my last post I said you might get A Touch Of Poison's latest installment...but...you don't. Sorry but It's just not ready. I transferred all of my info to my computer at home and so everyrthing is out of wack and...ugh. So I have to still make the rest of my writings on this computer go home. And I have three days to do so. If only Shiroi and Ryuuzaki had their hacking skillz here. Those two! All of the boys are going through some weird thing where they feel they have to kill each other to claim their place in the family. All of them have gone insane, and try and kill each other when they aren't around the cooresponsive sister. The sewt up is like this:

Ryojin --- Nami
Shiroi ---- Uitara
Kyarameru --- Yokozuna
Ryuuzaki ---- Tesu

So all of them have different floors of the house, paired with their own sister. The girls can interact with each other fine but the boys...oi. There are like...6 or 7 different floors above ground, two below. Yes, their house is huge. So each of them get their own floor (yes, each floor has its own bathroom and mini kitchen, not that they use the kitchens) and unless they have to go to school or someplace they stay there, not wanting to kill each other. Because the boys are not of equal strengths. I'm sure out of all of them Ryojin is the strongest, for now, Kyarameru is close behind him. Ryuuzaki is the tallest and has a lot of strength behind him too and Shiroi is pretty much his twin just a little shorter. If they all got into it...it would not be a pleasant outcome.
In other news, remember when I said I would get to babysit for Yukisora and Xiao? OMG It was way more interesting than I thought it would be! Pheleon' (Xiao's Son) and Veiraun (Yukisora's Son) are practically inseperable. They were born around the same time, so they are the same age. I forget which one is older. Everytime one of them got an idea of something to do he would look at the other and say "Yeah. I got it." Then they'd hop off the couh and go about their bussiness. *sighs and rolls her eyes* I'll update you guys more in a New York minute. My info tech teacher thinks the last three days of school are important. Oh btw Ryojin and them are out of school already!! How unfair is that!? Well...they are a day ahead...Pfft still not fair.

School's Out For The Summer,
SacreD SecreT

P.S: I can't WAIT until OSC

P.P.S: I Love You!

Good Day

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Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala It’s a happy day today. And I don’t really know why. But does it matter? Today Rox Sox hardcore. ^_^ Even though we’re doing Excel in this class (I.T) I’m still having a good day! Today is really good, I 0wonder what my horoscope is for today…I read it almost everyday. Yeah. Today is definitely a good day. If I can even have a good time in math class AND info tech, it’s a good freaking day, I hope everyone else is having a good day too. My friend was in her hot tub this weekend and fainted because the water was too hot and she slammed her face into something, cracked open her chin, her lip and hurt her head, so she had stitches in her face. Every time she talks she says her mouth hurts so we keep telling her to shut up. (It’s so fun) When I get home I don't know what I'm going to do, it's so pretty outside I think I'm going to go on a walk and talk to the Voices, and you know what speaking of them, I've been here all day. Wow. The Counselor was right...^_^ Cool Thanks. Maybe I'll stay for tomorrow too. Its awesome, I haven't been here in so long. Most of the time I only stay for select classes but I've been here all day and it's been gewd. That's awesome. OH! I almost forgot,

Congratulations Vaun, Tikara & Yuki-maru

Heehee, if you don't know why there's three names don't ask. Normally it's only two right? Well those three are odd so their always together. ALWAYS. Yes, even in the way you think. ^_^ But their cool. You know what I say a lot? Uh huh, and uhm, and and, and Well, and oh, and I don't know, and hm. lol I say a lot of stuff a lot. I say a lot a lot too. Buwahaha. Maybe I got too much sleep. I don't know I had a good morning so my day isn't screwed up. I was late to school, but I think it made my day better (I say "I think" a lot too, and so) Have you ever thought it would be better if you could go to school whenever? Like As long as you did get there,it wouldn't count as you being late or anything. You know? Ehh whatever. You don't have to understand. Am I rambling? I met a cool new voice today, she's Tuki's friend. (I call him Rise.) Her name is Tessianavee. I call her Tess, Rise's dad calls her Tessa, and Rise calls her Navee. Interesting huh? she's really pretty too. She has really long hair that she wears up in a extremely high ponytail, and her nails are like OMG their soooo long. Like wahh! Her eyes are really pretty purple and gold swirls. They sparkle in the daylight, it's kewl. Heehee I wanna see what happens with those two, cause Rise is a playa. He's not the committed type but hmmmm we'll see, we'll see. Whatelse? Oh my friend Honora, not a voice, had a crazy dream about the people who sing "I'm Too Sexy" (Right Said Fred) What is the craziest dream you've ever had? I think mine would have to be the time when I had those reoccurring dreams where I was dating a really sexy guy and I thought he was real so I'd wake up and be all disappointed and then he became a Voice in my head (THAT was disappointing, thanks a lot -_-;) That's the only weird dream I can remember right now, I've tried writing down my dreams in the middle of the night but when I woke up in the morning I couldn't read what I wrote! It was very gay. I used the '!' in a weird spot just now. Don't you think? I do. Oh well. Because this post is seeming to go on forever I might end it soon. Because I don't want to go back and read it and edit it ^_^ So goodbye, see you later how ever you say tootles in different languages. BYEE! Oh, and have a nice day.

Nothing Can Cool Me,

Sacred Secret

P.S: My secret for today is that when people ask me if I watch T.V I tell them I don't own one, I read instead, but the truth is there are four T.V's in my house and one of them is in my room.

Hey

Hey people I didn't post yesterday because of the following reasons;

1) I was sending all the stuff from this computer to mine.
2) The computer was especially slow yesterday.
3) I had an actual assignment to complete
4) And lastly, there just wasn't enough time!!

There wasn't enough time because the schedule is all screwy because of WASL testing. I don't expect you to know what that is, but it is a standardized test for the state I live in. I won't tell you, you'll have to figure it out ^_^ But otherwise how was your yesterday? What about yesterdays tomorrow? Mine is fine. I recieved interesting news last night and even before that equally happy news, Congratulations Lie & Tori. So I'll have to tell Fange' about my discoverings later, if she doesn't already know...which I don't think she does. Hmm. Well I think I'm done for today I don't want to give my stalkers too much to read for now. Maybe you guys will get luckier later...freaks. ^_^ Byeee!!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I'm Not as nice and meek as everyone thinks. ^_~

Title

So how are you all? I'm kind of bored today as once again I am posting from my head. I didn't want to come to school today because Fange' and the elementary schools didn't have to go to school today, but cest la vie. I'm Stickerfiying everyone today with Shamrock stickers. It was my mom's idea. I'm having fun. Moberry's friend gave me a cookie and I shared it with Honora, as we wandered through the halls. Hey, do you know any guys that can scream really high pitched? Like a girl? Some guy did that today, it scared the crap out of me! Needless to say I was very surprised. I'm writing something wrote now because the voice that's here is soooooo nice. She's very tolerant. I'd come actually be here but I'm watching some kids and waiting for their parents. Their asleep now, so I have time to write this but when they wake up I'll have to go. I've been going to career cruising.com and they said in order for me to be a Writer I should take classes like Computer Tech and Keyboarding. As well as English Literature and a bunch of business classes. I didn't think that it would take so much! If I become a Freelance writer I won't have to take all that stuff, plus I won't ever have a deadline I can work at my own pace. That would be awesome but I would need a day job to keep the cash flow. Hmmm I wonder what I'll do. Of course I have other options, other ideas, but right now that's the only one I really see. Do you have a dream job? One you hold tightly in your grasp, a dream you don't plan on letting go anytime soon? I used to want to be a Scientist, I thought I would find the cure for breast cancer but they seem so close now that by the time I got there they would have long since found the cure. But childhood dreams die...though...I still want a horse...^_^ anyway! Crap! Their up and starving (little vampires do that when they wake up =_= oi.) Got to keep their teeth away from me so peace out! Oh! And have an awesome weekend!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Friday is not my favorite day of the week, Monday is.

"Contemplation Demenstration"

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It's something a friend of mine says a lot. I'm not quite sure what it means but he says it all the time. Sometimes though when I'm not paying attention it sounds like something else. Figure it out for yourself. I don't know what to write about anymore. Have you ever done that? Started writing and then had to stop because you didn't know where it should go from there? I do that all the time and Fange' get's mad because I don't finish anything. But I guess she'll have to get over it or I'll have to find some self motivation. I have the sudden urge to read now...but I won't for at least another ten minutes 'cause I'm waiting. We're watching Lifetime. The channel for women. I don't know why either, but it's kind of interesting, a bit creepy. Well I guess I have nothing better to say. *yawns* I'm bored. I think I'll let someone else be bored. lalalala lol yeah right I can't sing right now. My throat is so dead its not even funny. I didn't go to school again today, and I reallly want to go tommorow because I missed a test in science today and God knows what I missed yesterday. Aww this movie is making me sad. No I don't know what its called, but it's very sad so far. I guess I'm going to go do something now. Bye bye bye!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: You don't get a secret this time.

...

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I don't know who'ss winning or losing in this situation but I know its not both at the same time because if it was then we wouldn't be so confused, he wouldn't be so pissed off, and I wouldn't be so irritated. How dare he be mad at me! Like he couldn't have this coming when I told him! When we broke up the first damn time I told him: "YOU SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM ME I BRING BAD NEWS AND CONFUSION!" did his dumbass listen? God no! Jesus he acts like its all my fault I wuite clearly remember giving him full warning and a clear chance to get the hell away but did his stupidass take the hint? Nooooo of course not he just figures I'm lying to him and I don't have aduquate reason to break up with him becuase "I'm crazy blah blah blah" You know "crazy" people normally know what they're talking about. Someone should listen to them one day and find out. But "crazy" people make "sane" people feel crazy so they don't talk to them I guess because they don't want to admit their dumb. Well I'm gonna go now. Peace

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I Hate Life.

Publicity

I'm handing out my web address to the people I know will read it. This is a big step for me especially since I've been putting my actual secrets on here. Oh I hope I'm not making a huge mistake. I'm only giving it to people who have Info Tech, and I think I can trust. My mom already has the site address but she doesn't come here she just wants to show her friends we have a "close" relationship. My horoscope says I'm not supposed to talk to Scorpio's (my Mom) I'm a Capricorn and it says we are incompatible. But I guess whatever is whatever. I'm working in my Geography Final right now because the Voice that was here last night didn't finish (she looked exhausted, and yet so happy) I love having my music with me because I can block out all the stupidity around me. But I guess sometimes I just want to get lost in my own little world where no one can bother me except for the people I want to. I don't know why I pretty much only post during Info Tech but that's just because it's easier I think. A lot of people don't understand what having a "blog" is, but I tell them it's just like MySpace. Except less stress and less popularity. I have a blog so I can release myself and let someone else read it without knowing who it was that read it. I suppose I should go now. Peace Out 07'!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I still like my Ex-Boyfriend but I'm afraid I'll confuse him (and me) if we go out again.

Hey People

Hey guys what's up? I'm doing alright I guess. I mean nothings really pullin me down but I already feel under. You know? I feel like I can't get back to where I was before. But I guess that's okay as long as I don't feel any worse. I got new songs for my iPod. They're good. I'm listening to "Welcome To The Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance. They're good. I like their music but some of it's weird. Kind of like that one guy on ABS. lol I love that. abs at ABS. Albino Blacksheep rules. So does Bored.com. That place is awsum too. I spelt awesome stupid. Does anyone know why people have to be illiterate on the Internet? I just don't get hat like it takes so much more effort to put an 'o' in 'you'. And about iPods and other MP3 Players...people don't blast those tiny little speakers. If you have t he big ones (Fange') you can play it as loud as you want because no one can hear it but you. I know rock songs and songs that you really like you want really loud but when your around other people or somewhere quiet...don't be stupid. Thank you n_n. Now for other news my ass hurts and I have to work on these essays for class tomorrow so I'll talk to you all later. Peace!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S.: Pssstt! HeyFange'....HI!! ^___^

School Again

Well I'm back at school now and I'm working on my essays for tommorow. Ehhh I'm not doing well I only have two done out of six! Plus I think I bombed (did badly) on my math test today in third period. *sighs* As long as I'm not failing. And Finals are coming up. I need stuff for my diaorama for English class plus the essay to go with it. Jeez I'm shoulder deep in homework. I hope next semester isn't so bad...


TWMA (Maybe)
Sacred Secret

P.S.: Don't go to high school it's bad for your back _-_,

Quick

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Today is weird so far and I'm not sure why. It just is. I think it's because I don't have my music with me. And I'm actually aware of what is going on around me. *shrugs* I dunno. But it's weird. The crazy sub choir teacher is gond now (FINALLY) and Rosey is back! Yeesss! IT's so great. He had a baby and his name is Jeremiah, born on December 12 2006. He's almost two months old already and Rosey is just coming back! Oh well. lol when I have kids I'll probably quit my job for a year or two! I'd be too attached to go back to work. Unless it's just me. Then I wouldn't have a choice. So I haven't updated in a while, sorry about that. I've just been busy. Midterms of sorts are coming up now that the holidays are gone gone gone. I'll try to post more often, and tell you guys more. Right now I've only got a couple minutes left of class to tell you that a guy in my choir has been hitting on me (I think) so far he's gone out with two different girls in the choir. Maybe I'm trippin' but I think he's trying to get to me. O_o I hope I'm mistaken. That weird girl that sits next to me is talking but I'm not really paying attention, and it smells like hairspray...I blame Ciara for that. Lakeyah, my ex-best friend is in the doorway withher weird pink back thing talking to the kids in this class. Well I've only got five more minutes of this pathetic excuse for a class. Timwe to pack up and bolt. (Science is next)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret