Editing

Hey, I'm editing my blog. So if you experience some weirdness that's why. Just refesh it a couple times or come bac later. No big. Tell me how you like the changes!


Mixin' It Up,
Sacred Secret

Quick

(unedited)

Today is weird so far and I'm not sure why. It just is. I think it's because I don't have my music with me. And I'm actually aware of what is going on around me. *shrugs* I dunno. But it's weird. The crazy sub choir teacher is gond now (FINALLY) and Rosey is back! Yeesss! IT's so great. He had a baby and his name is Jeremiah, born on December 12 2006. He's almost two months old already and Rosey is just coming back! Oh well. lol when I have kids I'll probably quit my job for a year or two! I'd be too attached to go back to work. Unless it's just me. Then I wouldn't have a choice. So I haven't updated in a while, sorry about that. I've just been busy. Midterms of sorts are coming up now that the holidays are gone gone gone. I'll try to post more often, and tell you guys more. Right now I've only got a couple minutes left of class to tell you that a guy in my choir has been hitting on me (I think) so far he's gone out with two different girls in the choir. Maybe I'm trippin' but I think he's trying to get to me. O_o I hope I'm mistaken. That weird girl that sits next to me is talking but I'm not really paying attention, and it smells like hairspray...I blame Ciara for that. Lakeyah, my ex-best friend is in the doorway withher weird pink back thing talking to the kids in this class. Well I've only got five more minutes of this pathetic excuse for a class. Timwe to pack up and bolt. (Science is next)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Dreams

What wonderful things they are that allow us to live and yet die in the same scene. Dreams are blissful unrealities that unable us to live out all of our dreams and all of our fears. Who would want to live out their own fears though? Someone who has never experienced fear, one who has yet to experience pain. A child. Though I would never wish any fear or pain upon a child I would like for them to experience the feelings at least once, if not in life than in their dreams. Dreams are the core of your imagination, if you do not dream you possibly are not as creative a you could be. But I digress. Or perhaps I don’t. Is it not possible that rambling is only a forming idea? Quickly ever so quickly does it for and take over thine mind with overwhelming anticipation and giddiness. Soon after this idea is formed you would wish to carry it out would you not? By doing so possibly giving someone else an idea, being creative is a wonderful thing, truly it is. Maybe you can figure out a way to dream and be awake at the same time? Like breathing and talking, like relaxing and working. Things that wouldn’t normally come together until it is invented or found through accidental experimentation. Alright my odd rambling is over for the time being. Farewell.

TWMA,
SACRED SECRET

Who's an Internet Whore?

I am!

God I don't think I could live very long without going insane if I did not have this glorious thing called the internet. I may try and act like I don't really need it, but god almighty is it an ever important thought in my head. I don't have a MySpace or anything but I'm always wondering if I missed something, or if I have an important e-mail waiting for me, did I miss something on my calrendar? Oh god the inhumanity. I think the government should issue everyone an up to date working computer with DSL or better. I know I'm crazy but you all should have known that by now!! So how was your holiday? My Christmas was beautiful, I got almost everything I wanted. I got my iPod, and my stereo, plus I got mass Nightmare Before Christmas stuff (including a belt, a stocking, a keychain, some magnets, chapstick, stationary, ect) and I got a bunch of gift cards ( I LOVE GIFT CARDS) which allowed me to buy two new video games. Gods I love Christmas and now my b-day is almost here. I love holidays. I love a lot of things now that I think about it. So I guess I'm going to go surf my beloved internet until the sun comes up!! OH Yeah!

Internet Whore Forever,
Sacred Secret

Merry Christmas!

Hey! It's almost christmas, and since I probably won't post again until maybe my birthday, I'll leave yowith something that will entertain you. RANDOM STUFF FROM INFO TECH CLASS! Yaayy!! Okay, here we go!
This first selection is called "Away" I don't remember why...

"Away©"

Do you know how I feel when you touch me?

Do you know I can barely hold back tears?

Do you know how much you remind me of the things I used to know?

Do you know that when you speak I shudder?

Do you know how much your voices are a like?

The only difference I'm afraid is you've taken longer, loved me shorter.

Can you believe that there are people like me?

People whom just want to be truly loved. I cannot believe it has taken me so long.

To realize that I have done this by myself.

Maybe I should go away and try to live alone by myself away from me away from you…

Can you believe that I’ve been waking in the middle of the night, just to make sure your arm is still around my waist?

Just to make sure you are still holding me tightly?

To make sure that my body is still perfectly contoured to yours?

I can't believe I've made it this far...

Or that you've helped me reach it.

Well that was fun right? Kind of interesting if I do say so myself. Here's something else, this is called "Boredom" no wonder...

Once upon a time there was a magical greenbean. The magic greenbean got eaten one day and turned the cow that ate him into a frog that then got eaten by a snake that got eaten by another snake that got eaten by a crocodile that got killed and worn by some people that just happened to all be on the same plane that just happened to crash in the middle of the atlantic ocean. The moral of this story is: Run on scentences are bad for you, so watch your punctuation.

I was reaalllyy bored when I wrote that. Thus the title. This next thing is kind of a song kind of not. I'm not really sure what to call it. But it's technically titled "The End Of Humanity"

"The End Of Humanity©"

This is an end to humanity.

This is the end of my sanity.

This is the end, yes, this is the end.

This is the end of us all.
Can you feel it?

Can you feel hidden deep within your bones?

Can you feel it?

The sorrow searching for a home.
It’s such a feeling that it gives the reasoning to tell you this is the end.

This is the end.

This is the end of us all, us all.

This is the end of us all.
Must I say it again?

I will tell you only once more.

This feeling I’m getting is something I’m fretting.

Not something I can just ignore.
This is the end, yes, this is the end.

This is the end of us all, us all, this is the end of us all.

Morbid little tune isn't it? Well I think I'm doen now, that's all you get. So Merry Chrismahaunakwannzaka to you! lol I so stole that just now. And to answer a recent question Gaiety means cheerfulness and or merriment.

Alright, peace out everyone!

TWMA,

Sacred Secret!

P.S: And A Happy New Year!!!!

The Best Years

Song(s) Of The Day: "Through The Glass" --- Stone Sour & "Behind Blue Eyes" ---- Limp Bizkit

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I was just looking at my stuff from elementary school and you know what? Those were the best years of my life. Minnimal drama, recess, cool teachers (mostly), little homework, field trips, man that was the best. I miss going to the Pacific Science Center in the spring and coming in from recess soaked with grass stains on my jeans from rolling around in the grass fields. I loved playing actual games in gym class and looking forward to it. I liked hanging out with my Real friends before/during/after school. I liked the simple gossip that didn't really matter. I though it was cool that it was okay for me to be out of the loop 'cause I wasn't the only one. I think my best experience in elementary school was the sixth grade. I learned a lot then, and I want to go back. But I don't want to feel the pain of splitting up again. That sucked. Me and my friends split up and went to different middle schools, but it's kind of okay now 'cause most of them go to my current school. Maybe I'm just feeling loathesome of my current situation right now, I don't know.

Phrase Of The Day: "Your only as good as what you create."

Punctuation Of The Day: "."

Well, I guess I'l go now. I've tidilated your senses enough. Oh btw check out those songs, okay? Their really awesome.



TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Jeez!

Holy crap can you believe it's almost Christmas already!? That went by hella fast. First I'm rolling down the street trying to go places after Thanksgiving then BOOM! It's Christmas time! Jeez...time needs to slow down a little bit I don't want to be older just yet. I like this age. I'm just settling into it. Doesn't it seem that way? You finally start telling people how old you really are because you haven't forgotten and you've got to start saying something else because your birthday came. It's insane. I know I know I don't have any reason to complain that I'm old but I feel like I can! Old people can't really complain either can they? What's so bad about being old other than you lose your flase teeth all the time and people start calling you gramps? I don't see a problem with being and old person who get's to sit on their butt all day and do whatever they please, be respected by total strangers 'cause your old. I like respect. I like being lazy. Being old sounds perfect to me! I could be wrong of course. Also, if young people and old people don't get along how come middle aged people who aren't kids anymore get along with old people? Is it because their about to be old? I dunno. Tell me if you find out. But then again I know alot of adults who hate old people, and they like seriously cannot stand them. It's funny sometimes. Well I guess I'll get to steppin now. I'm gonna go take a shower and eat some cereal. I like cereal. YEAH!


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Congratulations

Hey, how are things? Hope it's all well. My life has been busy. Or so it seems anyway. The voices lives are acting up again, and as much as I hate to admit it, and as mean as it probably is I love it when they have problems. It's so much more interesting that way becasue none of that ever happens to me. Sorry for those who are offened. I think I have a problem though. My ex-boyfriend and I seem to be hooking back up, not to go out again I can't do that. But we make a good couple when we're not dating. What sense does that make? And a guy I like is going to join the school choir next year, but I want to take French that year, what to do? EEK! Info Tech Teacher is coming g2g


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

I Like What You've Done With The Place!

So what do you think? This place doesn't look too shabby, eh? I like it. It satisfies me, now. OF course I'll have to change the background again soon and the word of the day is probably morew like the word of the week, but it's cool. I'm in Info Tech so I told me teacher I'm "researching website development using hands on techniques". lol he believes me. He also said I should carry a little notebook in my pocket for my ever flowing ideas. I guess it works 'cause I'm always wearing hoodies. So far my day's been alright. One of the Voices will be here later 'cause the way my room looks is pissing them off. (I'm okay with them cleaning my room! ^_^) So I'll be gone for a while after this class. I don't think I'll stay for science either. I'll just leave after I'm done with my blog. Does anyone know where/how you put your profile on this thing again? It was on there before but when I updated it went bye-bye. *tear* I'm sad now, we were so close!! Buwahahaha, I'm happy today I don't know why. Okay I guess I'll go now and I'll think I'll try and post later (after my room is clean) Peace!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S.: 14 days til Christmas!

New Version?

So my concert was great, I suppose I should have been a little calmer during it...but everyone else was too damn stiff! Now then, this new version of blogger brgins suspison to me. I don't know why. I have to go now. I was just keeping my promise of posting after my concert. Now I'm gonna go back to work 'cause the Voice that's here doesn't want to be where they live....if you know then it makes sense. Anyway, peace out.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: My head is greasy. ^_^

Happy Birthday To You!

It's Fange's b-day! I'm happy. My birthday is three weeks and six days from today! lol I hope she's having a good day so far, if she didn't I'll beat up whoever made her unhappy!!!! *death glares the people at Fange's school who piss her off* Anyway ^_^ Today is happy. YOU MUST BE HAPPY TODAY! I'm getting my fro done today too (I think) so I can look fly for the winter ball. Which happens to be right after my choir concert. Yo'll know what day that is 'cause I'll post. I PROMISE. And if I don't I'll post the next day! lol or the day before. So expect a pose either the 8th, 9th, or 10th of this month. (If your smart you figured out what day my concert is already) Well I gotta go do stuff so I love you all and have a happy day!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Black Outs

Black outs...you never expect them. Most people never even have them. But I do. I missed school today because of a black out. I don't remember this morning at all. But from what I was told I wouldn't get up so they left me. I didn't hear anything, feel or see anything, when I woke up around 1:40 I was confused and dazed. I didn't know why I wasn't at school or who was in the house or what was going on, or what day it was for that matter. These don't happen to me too often but sometimes they do. It's better than me going off and killing someone I suppose but it still freaks me out. I'm gonna go to school tommorow...

Darkness Encasing Me,
Sacred Secret

Blogging.

I won't blog for long I don't think. Maybe I will maybe I won't. I'm finishing up a powerpoint (ppt) for school, and I'm adding all the "cool graphics and animation". It's not so bad, just a little boring (I think) because it's for school and I can't put random stuff in it. But it should turn out cool when I'm completley finished. So far I've only done the first section out of four. Which is cool 'cause that's how much I'm supposed to do right now anyways. My Uncle is getting married today. His wedding is going to be off the hook, I saw the dresses and stuff. So cool. I got to help them prepare for the reception 'cause thats what Fange' was doing. Besides I didn't have anything better to do. If your wondering (you probably aren't) The Voices are doing good...most of them anyway. There are a lot of them expecting/having/trying/raising kids. That makes my job as a babysitter so much better. (The pay is beautiful) But they'll grow up eventually *sigh* lol I'm gonna go now 'cause I don't have anything better to do. Peace Out Ya'll.

TWMA
!Sacred Secret!

Back 2 School

I gotta go to school today, but it's 2 hours late. So I don't have to be there until 9:30. Which is cool. It's probably mega cold outside anywayz. I'm hungry though, so I'm going to have some Trix cereal and take a shower (hopefully I'll have time to take one, if not I'll just take one after school) It's hot in my house though, and I couldn't sleep for the life of me. And now I can't type worth crap!!!! Damndable typos, God! I don't know if my sister has to go to school today or not. I'll find out later. Well I'm gonna go do that now, since there's nothing better to do. Have a nice day.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Oh My Gosh!

Okay like I said I'm posting now. But there isn't a whole lot to post about. The snow thing closed my school today. I think I enjoy not going to school but being home makes me sad :( . I want to go outside but it's cold and I take forever to get warm again. But I'll go out there eventually before the snow melts I guess. Until then I'll sit in my house and do my homework and talk to my friends who don't have school as well and sip hot cocoa. I don't think I've written anything new....I'll check for you though. Oh! Here's a story I wrote during Info Tech. If you find any similarities between a few books you've read or not that's probably because I was reading said books at the time. So here you go.

New Beginnings, Sorrowful Endings©:

Jeremiah paced back and forth silently, glancing at the clock."Is she done now?" he looked at his brothers and back to the clock.Leviathan shook his head
"She'll be done when she's done. They come and tell us, man. Wait." Jeremiah sighed and continued to pace. What if they didn't come and tell him? What if they just sat in there, making him suffer on purpose? Had he done something to offend them? He would apologize if that were what they wanted as long as they did not keep her for much longer.
He heard a door open and he looked over quickly.
"Mr..Yove'? Your wife and baby girl would like to see you now, and any immediate family." Jeremiah rushed over to her and looked at his brothers, "Come on, Come on!" He hurried as the five large men roused themselves from their chairs.
"Uh...well..." the nurse stammered, awed by their sheer size, "Are you all family?"
Leviathan looked at her and smiled. "Yes of course. May we see the baby now?" She nodded weakly and beckoned them through the doors.
Russell came last through the doors and shuddered, he did not like hospitals. "Trev, I don't want to go in there." he called softly to his brother, whom was ten years older than he.
"Come on, you want to see Mary and the baby right?" Russell nodded and followed close behind his brother, after taking his hand.
Leviathan walked with Aaron and Mack, talking with them about the game that had been on in the lobby. The Colts had won against the Patriots twenty-one to fourteen, and the twins were psyched. When the nurse opened the door to Mary's room, Jeremiah ran to her side so quickly it did not look like he had actually moved.
"Mary, are you alright? Where's the baby? Did you name her?" questions poured out of him so fast, Mary did notUnderstand, and held a weak paled finger to his lips. "Hush, Jeremiah. Samantha is fine. She's in the nursery." Jeremiah sighed in relief and kissed her hand, staring at her appreciatively.
Trevor and Russell came over and said softy that they were going to go see the baby, with the nurse. They left quietly. Aaron, Mack, and Leviathan joined Jeremiah at Mary's bedside, and smiled at her. She looked up weakly at all of them, smiling. "You all are such good boys. Stay that way, alright?" The twins exchanged worried glances, "What are you talking about?" Mack said frowning. Leviathan walked over to Jeremiah and whispered to him.
Jeremiah spoke softly his reply and a single tear slipped down his cheek. Mary touched the hands of the twins softly and looked back to her husband, "I love you, take good care of her." He nodded and said a soft "I will," before kneeling and covering his face with one hand, barely holding back sobs.
Aaron realized what was happening and backed away, falling ungracefully into a gray hospital chair. Mack's hands began to shake as he covered his mouth, convulsing, closing his eyes tightly attempting to hold back the flood of tears.
Leviathan stood beside Jeremiah, his large heavy hand on his shoulder, "It's going to be alright my brother." Jeremiah shook his head swiftly and stared, teary eyed up at his wife.
Mary looked down at him and smiled; "You have...to be." she took in another breath, "Strong for.Sam." He took her hand and nodded, not able to do anything else.
The nurse came back in with Russell and Trevor in tow, holding the smallest creature Jeremiah had seen in his entire life. And it was his, her soft cry, her smile, and her eyes. They were his, but they were also very much Marys'.
Russell handed Samantha over to Mary very carefully, completely aware of the protective Fathers eyes that watched his every movement. Mary smiled at the child and began to sing to her, in a soft motherly tone. After a while the baby's cries stopped, soon after that the song did as well.
With the baby still cuddled to her breast, she slipped out of the living world."We should take the baby from her now." The nurse suggested only getting six angry growls as her reply.
Jeremiah stood slowly leaning against the bed, his hand over his beloveds for the rest of time. "Jeremiah, take Sam, and lets get out of here." Leviathan instructed, patting the brothers back gently.
Nodding, Jeremiah slipped the child from her mother and held onto her tightly, watching as the motherly smile faded, falling into dust. As the body disintegrated into ashes, the men bowed their heads, praying for Mary's never-ending peace within Paradise.
Jeremiah signed release forms and walked out the door with one less person than he wanted to. He thought the birth of this child would be a happy event, the Samantha's birth would be an occasion the he could celebrate with his wife.
Now he is to celebrate it with only his brothers and Sam. It is not as bad as it seems, though. For Mary is a child, being born right now, who will run across Jeremiah's path in kindergarten class.

There I tried to make it not so...clumped together. But blogger does hate me so who knows. I had to make this post long with something so you got my story. Want a picture too? I neglected you so you can have a picture too. Okay fine. You don't get a picture right now 'cause blogger hates me. Or maybe it hates you...? Well whatever the reason, I'll post one later.

TWMA Ya'll!,
Sacred Secret

Holy Cow!

Wow it's been a while huh? Jeez. I didn't mean for it to go so long but Thanksgiving was a blast and I had so much on my mind. I'm sure you all forgive me. I'll get back to updating really soon. I'll try and post tommorow if the school's computers aren't being stupid. I'm going to sleep now though so, happy belated Thanksgiving all and I'll talk to you tommorow!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Happy 40th!

W00t! W00t! This is officially my 40th post! How Cool! *does a happy dance* How exciting how exciting!! So now I don't know what to do, this post should be really cool and exciting and full of good news! But...I'm not sure I have and exciting news for you...OH! Hey I know you get to know something that's kind of annoying! I'm two choirs right? And since I have two choirs it is a possibility that I will sing something I've sang before correct? Yes. And I'm okay with this. sBut why do I have to resing the songs I hate!??! Grrrrrr that's annoying! Gah, we're singing "African Noel" is both choirs and I hate that song...with a passion. But that isn't going to ruin my day, or this post! ^_^ Happy Birthday blog! Puwahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Now what? Uhm...wanna know a secret? I like cheese! Don't tell. lol I got that from Fange'.

I'M FULL! <---- Taco Bell commercial
Why buy a mattress anywhere else? *ping!* <--- Sleep Country
I hate you, you hate me! <--- Barney song spoof
Backstreets back, Alright! <---Uhm...
Out of the box! Out of the box! <--- Out of the box. Duh.
Happy cows come from california! <---Ahh...the power of cheese.


Okay, bye bye now!

Happy 40th, Mr. Blog!,
Sacred Secret!


P.S. <_<>_> TWMA ya'll.

"It's All Good."

lol I was thinking about my cousin saying that. And about him doing the cha cha. That was so freaking funny. But of course, There have been alot of funny things with them. Lie the creation and destruction of "Meximaru" the dancing mexican dog-man. That was great, and "calming" will forever be funny. The word "putty" too. lol I'm gonna get yelled at for putting all this on here but I don't care right now. I'm too happy. I don't know why either, I just am so I'm going to enjoy the feeling. The enjoyable feeling of being happy. It seems like I'm never happy anymore, by reading my recent posts. So I just want to be happy right now. For this single moment. here's a quote:

"To truly taste happiness you must experience everything but."

I like it. Z said that. It surprised me, 'cause he doesn't normally say stuff like that, but out it came and it was cool. Phury looked at him funny when he did but didn't think much of it. It just must be a day for "those times" you know? Those times when weird moods and ooc things happen? It's a day for those times! Wow, a whole 24 hours dedicated to doing stuff you wouldn't normally do. Saying things you wouldn't normally say, and talking to people you normally wouldn't! lol maybe I'm overly happy. I dunno. Oh! I had a dream last night, it was about Jesus. And him being a goat. And everyone who eats goat dying because they ate Jesus. And the people who drink goat milk turning into pigs because they drank Jesus, and the people who Sacrifice goats got sent to heaven 'cause that's what was going to happen anyway! lol didn't see that coming. The sacrifice thing is another inside joke. I couldn't tell you because it wouldn't make anysense unless you knew the people and blah blah blah. *smiles* It was funny though. SO I think I'm gonna go now and write a story. Yes I'm in class. But it doesn't matter! Let the writing flow, man! Let it flow!

:)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret!

[Insert Title Here]

I stayed home today. I feel sick, and tomorrow I'm gonna have to ask all my teachers what we did in class. Oi what a hassle. But I still have voice lessons today. I'm excited but my nose is stuffy which makes my voice sound weird. So, whatever. I'm listening to Evanesence. But it's their older stuff. My voice sounds like theirs. So I'm trying to get my voice to sound normal again. Right now I'm trying to remember what I was thinking about yesterday. It was something like how astonished I was that my math class was my favorite place to be in the whole school...I don't know why, but it is. I feel good in there.
Somtimes when I feel alone, more so then normal in my bed I place my hand to my stomach, just to feel my own heartbeating. It's a weird thing that I do, I know, but I do it anyway. It makes me feel less alone for some reason. Maybe because when I do that I can pretend I'm not alone at all. I can pretend I have the life I want. Someone ideal to share the bed with and a much smaller someone depending on me. Some I love before I even meet them or hold them in my arms. Have you ever done that? Probably not. I'm odd so I understand if you've never done any of the things I ask you if you've done. *sighs* I...I just want a child. They don't even have to be mine. But I need a child in the house, or someone I can go to that has a child. I'm in one of those maternal moods if you can't tell. Though only Fange' knows I have these moods. These times when I just need a child to talk to an hold on to. To make me feel like I'm doing something important....finally. Matter of fact, want to see the baby I love the most? Here:

It's blurry, so it doesn't do her justice. But she's a beautiful little girl. Telling you her name would be stupide, on my part, so you don't get to know. I watched her on monday and it was so great taking care of her. Watching her walk all around the house and play with her toys. Feeding her was an adventure! *smiles* I loved it though. So anyway.

Now I'm writing down some lyrics. They aren't my own, so don't get any ideas. I think I'll post again later today.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

Flat, Lifeless...

I don't know. I'm feeling...different. It's a new stage of my floaty moods. I've been here before but never so deeply. I'm not even sure I want to be writing this. My mind is so fogged. Such a great heaviness I bear right now...So I'm feeling alone. In crowds of people I feel alone and alone I feel small. Like a lost child, alone and afraid, almost ready to welcome anyone to hold me, but still clutching to the thought that I will find my Mother. But perhaps this is a test, the voices are always testing me so mayhap the current world wishes to test me as well. *closes her eyes* So be it. Alas, I finished my book. "Lover Awakened" was a beautiful book. I think I may read it again, and perhaps a third and fourth time. As I thought I grew to love Phury so much more. And Tohrment...oh my heart breaks for him. Zsadist became closer to my heart as I knew we would, but his female, Bella, has become a favorite too. Someone I didn't expect to get closer with is Butch, the human that hangs out with the Brotherhood. Him and Vishous live together in The Pit, like a guest house of the Brotherhoods mansion. They are not together. I loved the ending and then again I hated it. I still wonder the name of Zsadist child, whether or not he named her Nalla. In the book it says Nalla means something along the lines of 'beloved', so if he did name her that I wouldn't be too surprised. Anyway, I've got to go now. Farewell.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret