Hey Hey Hey!

It's not Fat Albert! Do you know the way to do eBay? Contemplation Demonstration or repetition condition of mentality disposition. Yes? No? Greenenbo. PSP PS2 xbox gamecube and wii. Gaming for gamers by gaming gamers? http://fanboys-online.com/ is an awesome comic you should go there. Friends and Lovers and Baby's Daddy's and Baby's Momma's. Little Kids and Old ones. Adults and Teens. Hair and Baldness restless leg syndrome. Cancer, AIDS, premarital sex and masturbation. Abortion, Prolife, proage, and cell phones. Driving drunk and driving sober tired anger cold and heated. Swimming naked, temples, nudist colonies and polygamy. YouTube, Fanfiction.net, Hampsters and Neopets. MySpace, Bebo, My Yearbook and The H. French class, Spanish class, German, Japanese. Sign language, deaf guys, blind people and mutes. Dwarfs, midgets, preemies, blacks. Asians, natives, Mexicans and whites. Computers, technology, videos and DVDs. Typing, Writing, reading, publishing. Can it. Forget it. Relieve it. Memorize it. Listen. Hear. Think. Relive. Promise. Keep. Children. Wealthy. Poor. Thoughts. Lead. Wars. Peace Happiness. Jokes. Retaliate. Harmony. Joy. Names. Forgotten. Numbers and math for science and chemistry. Sex ed and physical education balled up into one. reading and writing are next to electives while math is next to phys ed. Friendship and rivalry. Books and magazines.

Controversy.


Think About It,
Sacred Secret

"I Like You On Your Knees."

Don't even ask about the title if you don't already know. It's just too funny, you would have to have been there (or have a nasty mind) to understand. So anyway. How any of you have seen "RENT" the movie? Or heard "Seasons Of Love" the theme from that movie? If you haven't heard it check it out. But there's a really high note in that song somewhere around the end and I want to be able to do that I can't. (the last 21 secondsish.) I can do the end of that but I can't for anything hit the beginning. I don't know how I should say. I'm listening to Ike play his ukulele. It's so cool ^_^ Ukulele's look like really small guitars (its a gitar strang!) and the sound so awesome. Ike plays his all the time, so he's good at it. I don't really have anything else to say to you all today....hm I'll see if I have something in my files for you to read... I don't think I've let you read this yet...I hope you all like it because I wasn't going to post it but I feel nice today so... here you go:

May I Play With You?

You think I care?
Think I care what you think of me?
Do you honestly think I care about you or your opinion?
Well…
I do.
Everything you say hurts.
When you say mean things I think their true.
Kind things you say are lies.
When you invite me places I think your just being mean to screw with my head.
Exclude me and I think I’ve done something to offend you.
Though we’ve never met.
Can you forgive me?
For something I have yet to do?
Something I haven’t thought of?
Would never think of doing…
Could you forgive me for that?
I would try to forgive you.
Would make the effort to make you feel welcome
Even if we weren’t the best of friends,
Because that’s all I want from you.
Is to be a friend.
Can we?
Please?
We’re so alone…

I can't remember why I wrote that but it's probably because of one of the days in this class (I.T) that I was feeling invisible. *shrugs* I don't know. Anyway Tyler's been being mean to me lately, so I haven't been talking to him. I've been letting the Voices come during science class because I can't handle him. The other day he threw a chair at me, then yesterday he hit me with his backpack. I don't know why he's being an ass, but if he's still reading my blogs I want him to know I'm sad at him. ^_^ Now for a different subject in your comments I want you to post your favorite baby name, for those of you that already have kids please post something other than your child's name ( you know who you are -_-;) please and thank you. I'm just curious. To be fair mine are Aubrey (girl) and Seth (boy) I also like Devonte (boy) and Tori (girl) I don't know why but their names are cool. So please comment your favorite names. I found a lot of cute fox and wolf puppy pictures. I'm obsessed. There just so adorable. I've always like babies but baby animals take the cake. ^_^ *heart sparkle joy* Heehee I think their too cute. Enough with that now I'm going to work on my English homework (write a short story) you do it too. But don't put it in a comment. Send it to me! If you don't have my e-mail address write in the comment that you want to send me a story and I'll give it to. (maybe ^_~) Alright people I'm out. See you later!!!

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S: I like country music, but some of it does get on my nerves.

Ranting...

(unedited)
I hate this class with a firey passion. The only time I learned anything in here is when we has that really mean old fat lady. But atleast we were learning then. I have a feeling if the original teacher had stayed I would be working right now, instead of wondering what the hell I'm supposed to be doing...*sigh* I wish SOMEONE would HELP me maybe you know maybe someone like the TEACHER after he gets some breath mints because that stuff is rank to high heaven! Seriously, who has that rancid of breath? Sure he looks a little more clean shaven than before but his breath is still gross. SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF THIS CLASS!!!!!!!!! I wish someone could like come in here and ask me what I really wanted right this moment. I would say "another class please." and then they would wave their magic wand and I would be in a new info tech class like that. So much better that way. I want to work on my story for English class. I'm going to go home and leave, have someone else clean my room and the bathroom then I'll come home and work on my my story. I want to cry now... I don't know why either I just do. I want to burst into tears and run out of here. It would feel so good. These people are stupid. Can't someone please, for the love of GOD get me out of here? Please? I can't wait until the freaking school year is over so I can go to french class everyday instead of this hell. Please let me get transfered out of this class please please please!! Its not always like t his but I hate Excel (microsoft program) and God forbid he tell us what to do at all. No. He just writes some questions on the board without telling how we're supposed to answer them. Bah! I hate this class! Hate hate hate! Utter loathing. Grrrr I'm leaving.

Eternal HATRED For Info Tech,
Sacred Secret

Hey

Hey people I didn't post yesterday because of the following reasons;

1) I was sending all the stuff from this computer to mine.
2) The computer was especially slow yesterday.
3) I had an actual assignment to complete
4) And lastly, there just wasn't enough time!!

There wasn't enough time because the schedule is all screwy because of WASL testing. I don't expect you to know what that is, but it is a standardized test for the state I live in. I won't tell you, you'll have to figure it out ^_^ But otherwise how was your yesterday? What about yesterdays tomorrow? Mine is fine. I recieved interesting news last night and even before that equally happy news, Congratulations Lie & Tori. So I'll have to tell Fange' about my discoverings later, if she doesn't already know...which I don't think she does. Hmm. Well I think I'm done for today I don't want to give my stalkers too much to read for now. Maybe you guys will get luckier later...freaks. ^_^ Byeee!!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I'm Not as nice and meek as everyone thinks. ^_~

Title

So how are you all? I'm kind of bored today as once again I am posting from my head. I didn't want to come to school today because Fange' and the elementary schools didn't have to go to school today, but cest la vie. I'm Stickerfiying everyone today with Shamrock stickers. It was my mom's idea. I'm having fun. Moberry's friend gave me a cookie and I shared it with Honora, as we wandered through the halls. Hey, do you know any guys that can scream really high pitched? Like a girl? Some guy did that today, it scared the crap out of me! Needless to say I was very surprised. I'm writing something wrote now because the voice that's here is soooooo nice. She's very tolerant. I'd come actually be here but I'm watching some kids and waiting for their parents. Their asleep now, so I have time to write this but when they wake up I'll have to go. I've been going to career cruising.com and they said in order for me to be a Writer I should take classes like Computer Tech and Keyboarding. As well as English Literature and a bunch of business classes. I didn't think that it would take so much! If I become a Freelance writer I won't have to take all that stuff, plus I won't ever have a deadline I can work at my own pace. That would be awesome but I would need a day job to keep the cash flow. Hmmm I wonder what I'll do. Of course I have other options, other ideas, but right now that's the only one I really see. Do you have a dream job? One you hold tightly in your grasp, a dream you don't plan on letting go anytime soon? I used to want to be a Scientist, I thought I would find the cure for breast cancer but they seem so close now that by the time I got there they would have long since found the cure. But childhood dreams die...though...I still want a horse...^_^ anyway! Crap! Their up and starving (little vampires do that when they wake up =_= oi.) Got to keep their teeth away from me so peace out! Oh! And have an awesome weekend!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Friday is not my favorite day of the week, Monday is.

It's Pie Day!

My nail broke. I never thought I'd say that because my nails are so strong but it broke on the door or something. I don't know. It hurt. Today in Info Tech we are writing about what we know about Global Warming. Isn't it amazing that we're working in I.T.? Mr. Urner must have gotten yelled at or something because now we're working (yes, I'm back at school) and it's kind of fun. Oh BTW its Pie day! You know the mathematical sign, pi? Well it's March 14 which makes it 3.14! Get it? It's a math thing. Anyway Happy Pie Day. So what are you all doing this weekend? I'll probably hang out with my friend and it should be a happy weekend. We're expecting kids this month but nobody has had any yet. :( I'm sad because I love it when people have kids. It's so fun everyone gets excited and happy. Like when Darius and Sayuri had their kids everyone went psycho! Everybody was like "Omigod!" lol it was funny and cute because of the babies and everyone was jumping around wanting to see them and *smiles* It was cool. I guess you could say I'm having a good day today, yes I was here. I've been here all day. And you know what? I'm not invisible in I.T. today. People are talking to me and noticing me. I didn't change anything about myself so maybe it's because I was gone mon-tues. I dunno. Well I guess I'll go now , I actually have to pay attention a little bit! See you all later!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: It's a wonderful day in the neighborhood. (I like to try odd foods as long as the LOOK good)

P.P.S: Does anyone other than me HATE the labels?

"Contemplation Demenstration"

(unedited)
It's something a friend of mine says a lot. I'm not quite sure what it means but he says it all the time. Sometimes though when I'm not paying attention it sounds like something else. Figure it out for yourself. I don't know what to write about anymore. Have you ever done that? Started writing and then had to stop because you didn't know where it should go from there? I do that all the time and Fange' get's mad because I don't finish anything. But I guess she'll have to get over it or I'll have to find some self motivation. I have the sudden urge to read now...but I won't for at least another ten minutes 'cause I'm waiting. We're watching Lifetime. The channel for women. I don't know why either, but it's kind of interesting, a bit creepy. Well I guess I have nothing better to say. *yawns* I'm bored. I think I'll let someone else be bored. lalalala lol yeah right I can't sing right now. My throat is so dead its not even funny. I didn't go to school again today, and I reallly want to go tommorow because I missed a test in science today and God knows what I missed yesterday. Aww this movie is making me sad. No I don't know what its called, but it's very sad so far. I guess I'm going to go do something now. Bye bye bye!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: You don't get a secret this time.

Sick

I'm sick, and it sucks because tomorrow I have to sell girl scout cookies and today I think I have to go to choir. It is Tuesday after all, and small ensemble needs me. I don't really want to go but I've been at home FOREVER now and I'm really really bored. When I'm sick I don't want to lay around all day I get too bored. Unless I feel like total shit then laying around is good. This medicine is good though it really works and I love it. I don't really know what I'm going to do now, I'm very very bored. I guess I'll putt around YouTube for a little while, maybe write something. Eat some more. Well I guess I'll talk to you all later. Maybe I'll post again. But I never do when I say that! Maybe!!

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S: Sometimes when I'm mistaken for a boy, I just play along.

Friday

Okay so I'm blogging from my head, the voice that is here is kind enough to let me do this. (thank you) because they have other things to be doing. I just wanted to tell you all that I haven't been here all week. I've only come back a couple times and you can bet it wasn't at school. Next week I'll be here more often (promise), cause The Counselor said I should be. But I like being there and talking to other people that are actually intelligent and I don't have to dumb myself down so they can understand what I'm saying. If anything they have to stupify themselves so I can understand them and it's so great ^_^ I'm so used to people saying things like "What?" and "I don't get it." it's just so frustrating to talk to idiots all the time (I'm sure at least some of you know what I'm talking about) If there weren't intelligent people for me to escape to I think I'd be permanently stupid. So I'm glad for my house, Fange's house and the Voices because I don't want to be dumb all my life (though sometimes I do lack common sense) Enough of my ranting! It's Friday and I am happy. I ate good food, played games, spent time with the coolest kids in the world, and now I'm going to go visit some babies (and their parents) and talk to some other people and get to know new ones! I love my job ^_^ Speaking of jobs I think I've acquired a new one. I don't want it for permanency. It's just fun to do sometimes, okay? Stop asking me to do it for an actual job because I already have one and I LOVE what I do, okay? Okay then. Fill in for someone when I'm not doing anything? Sure. Got an extra job when I'm bored? Okay. Offering a couple dollars when I'm broke? Of course. But keep in mind that I do enjoy babysitting and I want to keep that as my job. Alright? Now that I think about it some people will not understand what I was just talking about and because of it your going to have to stay confused because I'm not going to explain for you. Either try and figure it out yourself or let it go. Alright, I'm done now. Peace Eazy people.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: If I had a true confidante' I would tell them everything about myself the first time I talked to them. I try not to do that with everyone because it gets me into bad friendships. The people I'm close to already know a lot.

Sorry 'Bout That

lol thank you my sistah, I completely forgot after being slapped. That I didn't give you guys your secret! To explain the being slapped thing, some kid walked by and hit me. I don't think it did it on purpose but it still pissed me off because I'm apparently invisible in that class. Anywho here are your secrets for today, later!


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Talking is like a guessing game to me, I tell people what they want to hear, but if I say the wrong thing I play it off.

P.P.S: Sometimes I think I'm something that I'm not and it makes me feel better than everyone else because I pretend they know.

Betches

This post was going to be happy until I got slapped just now. That totally ruined my day just now. This had better not get any worse. I try to make the most of Monday's because they start every week and there's going to be a lot of them. Life is what you make of it so why can't Monday be the same? There's a boy in my Info Tech class who looks (and reminds me of) a rat. Not a very smart rat either, not one you use for testing. Just a regular old ugly, smelly, rat. And he's annoying too! (bonus points!) Otherwise, today has been pretty good. I wish people would watch where their going sometimes, instead of just stopping in the middle of places without thinking about the other people that are trying to get by. You can't say excuse me because they take manners as sarcasm, and you can't just flat out tell them to move because then they get all huffy and hostile talkin about "Why should I?" and "Go around!", "You move." and ish like that. I don't understand why people have to be jerks all the time. Jeeze. Anyway, I haven't completed my publicity stunt yet, I keep forgetting to cut out my blog address. I think I'll just bring scissors to school. In Info Tech I'm writing a lot of things and I'm not letting anyone read them because after I know what someone else thinks about it it makes me feel like the written piece is used and old. So there's a bunch of stuff no body's read yet. And when I'm done with them I'll send them to my house computer and post them up here or print them out and give them to Fange' and my Mom. My Info Tech teacher, Mr Urner, is a pretty off the rocker kinda guy. Like right now there's a kid drawing a "picture" of him on the whiteboard and he's totally cool with it. When class started he made everyone shake his hand before they cam into the class. It was so weird, but he does odd ball stuff like this all the time. Wow. Anyway I think I'm gonna go now maybe I'll post something later...I doubt it though. Hmm....whatever, peace ya'll or as the newest voice says: Later bye-bye!


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Daddy's Little Girl

Daddy's Little Girl
Frankie J

He drops his suitcase by the door
She knows her daddy won't be back anymore
She drags her feet across the floor
Tryna hold back time to keep him holding on
And she says

Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you
Daddy Daddy don't leave
Mommy's saying things she don't mean
She don't know what she's talking about
Somebody hear me out

Father listen
Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go
Father save him
I would do anything in return
I'll clean my room
Try hard in school
I'll be good
I promise you
Father, Father
I pray to you

Now she hasn't slept in weeks
She don't want to close her eyes cause she's scared that he'll leave
They tried just about everything
But it's getting harder now
For him to breathe
And she says

Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you
Daddy Daddy don't leave
The doctors are saying things they don't mean
They don't know what they talking about
Somebody hear me out

Father (father) listen (listen)
Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go
Father (father) save him
I would do anything in return
I'll clean my room
Try hard in school
I'll be good
I promise you
Father, Father
I pray to you

Please don't let him go
I'm begging you so
There open his eyes
There ain't no more time
To tell him that I love him more
Than anything in the world
Is Daddy's little girl

Father (father) listen (listen)
Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go
Father (father) save him
I would do anything in return
I'll clean my room
Try hard in school
I'll be good
I promise you
Father, Father
She was Daddy's Little Girl

Mmmmm Oh

Choir

This Picture Is Dedicated To Those Who Have Ever Had A Shitty Day.

Okay so I went to choir today, didn't have very much fun. I was really bored and I'm going to quit (don't try to talk me out of it this is my last quarter) I ate milk and cookies and I want to write about stuff but I can't and I....UGH! I don't want to go to school anymore, 'cause today right before lunch and then again before 5th period depression hit me. Like a wave I couldn't control it, it bum rushed me and left me shaky and on the brink of tears for reasons beyond me. When I was steady I went on with my day and I was fine until the next time. But ugh...maybe I'll just stay in y head from the time my alarm clock goes off until I get home and crawl into my bed @ which time I'll leave again and restart the cycle. "The Counselor" says that I should spend some time here just to keep up with things. But I don't want to because it hurts...*Sighs* I'll just come back every once in a while so that I'm doing bot h what I want and taking the suggestion of "The Counselor". So I'll probably post from my head when I'm at school. Speaking of school I have a "Student Led Conference" on Friday. It's a take-home thing though so there won't be any teachers there. Now I'm going to do something I have been wanting to do. It's probably very dumb and it won't do much but it's another "publicity stunt" I'm going to print out my blog address and put it into random people's lockers tomorrow at lunch. I don't know what will happen and I'm not expecting much but I want it to be something good. If not oh well. I guess I'll go now. And do something...or something...Here's a pic:It reminds me of the voices.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S: Singing makes me tired.

Nothing To Do With Me.

The following poem/thingy has nothing to do with me, though I did write it. This is the morbid poem thingy I was talking about yesterday and don't worry about me because I like life too much for me to do any of the things listed in the following poem. Okay? All of those I know that may freak out about this please don't worry 'cause like I said I like life too much for this to happen. I think the only person I've talked about this poem to is "The Counselor" and he said it scared him too. But I explained it to him and now he understands. But he also only read the unedited version. I don't think this version is as scary. So...here goes...

"My Note"

Created By: Sacred Secret

I ran all the possibilities through my head
I wrote them down in script.
I thought about the people that would be affected
But figured my pain was greater
Than any, they could know.
I did it very quiet
I left them in the dark
The paper lay beside the spot where I would fall.
For a moment more I thought of them
The people I held close.
Of all the good times and the smiles
I thought of all the children I had yet to have
The significant other that would never hold me close
I thought of my Mother and what she would think when they found me
My Father and his tears.
Then the darkest angel came into my thoughts.
Their face blurred my vision and they whispered my name
I trembled and lost control of my legs.
Tears streamed down my cheeks
I screamed
“Don’t come any closer! You have done enough!”
And they stared in disbelief
I brought it to my head
Felt it swirl in my loose grasp
I pressed the cold steel to my temple
And adjusted my grip
“Please...”
They whispered as I closed my eyes
“This can’t go on you’ve hurt me enough.”
I said calmly
As my baby sisters little hands reached up at me in my mind
For the last time.
I heard my older brothers deep laugh and remembered the vibration in his chest from it.
For the last time.
I opened my eyes and stared straight at my dark angel
I told them to look
Look at what they have done.
I told them not bring another this fate.
And I released the blast into my own head.
I saw the ceiling
I could hear my dark angel scream my name
I saw my blood pool around me
Felt it mat my hair
Then I was cold and that was the last I felt.
I saw my baby sister again
I saw my brothers disapproving frown.
Saw my Mother and Father curled into themselves bawling.
I saw my dark angel and me on the swings of the schoolyard.
Saw myself as a child.
And in that moment I actually
Regretted Everything.
As I continued falling into what seemed to be an increasing cold
I wished I could go back if only for a moment
And rewrite my note…
But now I can’t
And this is what I have left them…

“Dear those I thought cared,
How could you have been so cold? Didn’t you care?
Obviously not or else, I would still be sitting there talking to you instead of you reading this smiling. Though you’re probably enjoying this, watching my blood seep from my wounds to pool at your feet. I hope you have fun at the party celebrating my death.
To My Angel, I sincerely hope…
You take full blame.”

There you have it. Please don't freak out, as I said. Take it in, and comment. Thank You.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S: I actually edited this poem. I don't ever edit anything most of the time.

Hey Look!

I'm having a good day. And I don't want anything to ruin it because they have been so few and far between these past days. Right now life is good and there is nothing negative on my mind. I love it. I've been at my friends for winter break and I had mad fun. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Lol and all the people that tried to comment but couldn't don't be discouraged! Sometimes Blogger just hates everything and wants to be Emo so just try again some other time! And I found out that more than just one person reads my blog! Yay 'You know who'!!! I luvs ya!! I forgot what I was gonna say. I was writing a poem in my head but its morbid and unedited and it doesn't make any sense so you don't get to read it yet. I'm gonna go do other stuff now so I'll posty posty later okay? Okay. Peace

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I'm not sure which world I like more, the one in my head or my "reality"

...

(unedited)

I don't know who'ss winning or losing in this situation but I know its not both at the same time because if it was then we wouldn't be so confused, he wouldn't be so pissed off, and I wouldn't be so irritated. How dare he be mad at me! Like he couldn't have this coming when I told him! When we broke up the first damn time I told him: "YOU SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM ME I BRING BAD NEWS AND CONFUSION!" did his dumbass listen? God no! Jesus he acts like its all my fault I wuite clearly remember giving him full warning and a clear chance to get the hell away but did his stupidass take the hint? Nooooo of course not he just figures I'm lying to him and I don't have aduquate reason to break up with him becuase "I'm crazy blah blah blah" You know "crazy" people normally know what they're talking about. Someone should listen to them one day and find out. But "crazy" people make "sane" people feel crazy so they don't talk to them I guess because they don't want to admit their dumb. Well I'm gonna go now. Peace

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I Hate Life.

Updation

I don't know if that's really a word but I like it. And as for the updation in question...do you like? Comments and things please!

P.S: This isn't a real post so you don't get a secret

I'm Changin' Some Things...

Where will it go from here? Where will they stop?

Sigh...

I'm happy/frustrated because someone other than Fange' read my blog (Thank you) and Blogger hates me right now and I can't do anything!! This is the third time I've written this. Maybe I'm the incompetent one but good lord! Was I mean to it? Why does it hate me? I'll have to thoroughly edit this later when I get home so you can get all the cool stuff. I was going to post a picture and a poem/story/song thingy but as I said Blogger hates me right now and I can't do anything. I'll see you all later I guess.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret


P.S: I know I'm a good singer but when other people say it and I agree out loud I'm conceited, when I don't agree I don't know how to take compliments.

P.P.S: I love dual meanings (especially the gross ones)

Publicity

I'm handing out my web address to the people I know will read it. This is a big step for me especially since I've been putting my actual secrets on here. Oh I hope I'm not making a huge mistake. I'm only giving it to people who have Info Tech, and I think I can trust. My mom already has the site address but she doesn't come here she just wants to show her friends we have a "close" relationship. My horoscope says I'm not supposed to talk to Scorpio's (my Mom) I'm a Capricorn and it says we are incompatible. But I guess whatever is whatever. I'm working in my Geography Final right now because the Voice that was here last night didn't finish (she looked exhausted, and yet so happy) I love having my music with me because I can block out all the stupidity around me. But I guess sometimes I just want to get lost in my own little world where no one can bother me except for the people I want to. I don't know why I pretty much only post during Info Tech but that's just because it's easier I think. A lot of people don't understand what having a "blog" is, but I tell them it's just like MySpace. Except less stress and less popularity. I have a blog so I can release myself and let someone else read it without knowing who it was that read it. I suppose I should go now. Peace Out 07'!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: I still like my Ex-Boyfriend but I'm afraid I'll confuse him (and me) if we go out again.

Ephebiphobia

Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers

I'm bored today, and I'm not sure whats different about today either. Maybe I'm just not feelin' it today. By It I mean that vibe you get when you know your alive. In Info Tech class right now and Mr.Urner is teaching us how to take notes (because we don't know how to do that. @_@) I've also found an interesting quote that I am supposed to save. I'll post it:

"It's hard to believe that moments that once brought a smile to my lips now bring tears to my eyes." -- Suketsu Tenshi Aleandera

Don't steal it, because it isn't yours and you didn't say it. I'm tired now. I want to write stuff but I can't because I don't know what to write. I want to read something but I can't because it will look like I am not paying attention. I talked to my dad online the other night and I never want to do it again. Just because of how stupid he is 'sometimes' (because he isn't dumb all the time...at least I'd like to believe so) I want to cry but I can't because I don't know how in a sense. That's my secret for today. That I can't cry. No matter how hard I try to I just can't. Crying pisses me off for some reason and when I do it I hate myself for crying in the first place and hate myself for not being able to show the emotion others can. When I can though...when I am on the brink of tears I hold them back, even though I know I won't be able to do it later. I should stop explaining this because I'm going to regret doing so later.
I have a question for you all, what would you want your epitaph to say? For those who don't know what and epitaph is look at the bottom of the page for "Word Of The Day" I haven't changed it in a while so those who frequent that section of the blog I'm sorry. Now I want to post this before I have to type it again because I think the computers are going to "mysteriously" go out again like on Friday.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: Crying pisses me off, but when I can't cry I hate myself.

Celebrity Deathmatch

I'm watching Celebrity Deathmatch and it's funny. If you've never seen it before (you live under a rock) it's about clay celebrities beating the living hell out of each other. It's great. So yeah. I haven't posted a picture in a while and that one's pretty good. I like it anyway. So how are you all? I'm fineish.

I'd tell you but I don't really want to. I'm only posting 'cause I'm bored. See you all later.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret


P.S. I'm jealous of my best friends body, and I hate my own.

P.P.S:
“Large fibs; offing eye theodicy zero nigh ash one region black panther. “ --- Half-Witt & Fange'

Water Bottle

There was a much better version of this post that I was in the process of writing before this nimrods in my class restarted ALL the computers by turning off the main power. God I could strangle them! I want to switch out of this class but I can't yet. I have to wait. I don't think they'll let me switch anyway it's not important. Anyway this post WAS about

Water Bottles
Fears
Epitaphs
Dumbasses
Bathrooms

But now it's not because I don't want to write all of that over again. But because their stupidity isn't fair to you, I'll post all my fears (some of them I just like the sound of)

Favorite/Self Phobias:
1. Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself
2. Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
3. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
4. Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
5. Anglophobia- Fear of pain.
6. Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
7. Belonephobia- Fear of pins and needles.
8. Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
9. Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed.
10. Chronophobia- Fear of time.
11. Daemonophobia- Fear of demons.
12. Eremophobia- Fear of being oneself or of loneliness.
13. Gerontophobia- Fear of old people or of growing old.
14. Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia- Fear of the number 666.
15. Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words.
16. Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility
17. Isolophobia- Fear of solitude, being alone.
18. Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat.
19. Lygophobia- Fear of darkness.
20. Microphobia- Fear of small things.
21. Monophobia- Fear of solitude or being alone
22. Nyctophobia- Fear of the dark or of night.
23. Uranophobia- Fear of heaven.
24. Parturiphobia- Fear of childbirth.
25. Peladophobia- Fear of bald people.
26. Phengophobia- Fear of daylight or sunshine.
27. Poinephobia- Fear of punishment.
28. Pyrophobia- Fear of fire.
29. Sciophobia, Sciaphobia- Fear of shadows.
30. Selenophobia- Fear of the moon.
31. Sesquipedalophobia- Fear of long words
32. Teratophobia- Fear of bearing a deformed child or fear of monsters or deformed people.
33. Triskaidekaphobia- Fear of the number 13.
34. Zelophobia- Fear of jealousy.
35. Zeusophobia- Fear of God or gods.

Well that's all you get because I'm feeling pissed off and lazy, like I said, and I don't want to write all that again. Maybe I'll do it later when I get home. Probably not though so don't hold your breath. *sighs* This was going to be a long post. That saddens me. W/e its too late now. Want to read part of a 'poem' I wrote? Of course you do. It's called "How Does It Feel?©"

"How Does IT Feel?©"

How does it feel to be left by the world?
So alone not even the rain will give you company.
So this is the life you’ve chosen little bird.
The kind that does not bring friendships but enemies instead
You’ve entered a land that no one is willing to walk through with you, even though you loath them all, still you wish for their company, don’t you?
So this is what you want, little bird?
This is what you’ve chosen.
Accept that now even the clouds shun you for your betrayal.
You shall live for neither side.
Nor shall you die for either.
You have chosen this path, little bird.

A destiny you must live with.

What do you think? I like it but I don't think it's too good. I like the last one better, you know the one I'm talking about? "Let's Go To Paradise". I like that one because a lot of other people like it. I showed it to almost everyone in my fifth period class. A lot of them laughed at the title though, but they can kiss my ass. There's only a couple minutes of class left so I guess I should start wrapping things up. How are you all? I'm fine. From now on at the end of my posts I'm going to put one secret that I have. That way I can feel better and begin my new years resolution. I started working on it late because most people have broken theirs by this point. Okay see you all later.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S. I lie to my loved ones more than I lie to my enemies.

Let's Go To Paradise

I wrote this yesterday after talking to a couple of the voices. I guess you could say what we talked about inspired me....here you go:

Let’s Go To Paradise.©

Take me away to a place I can feel
Where the winds and the rains are forever calm
Where the grass is green on both sides of the fence
Where no matter how long you’re in the tub you never wrinkle up.

Take me away to a place I can live
Where children can fufill all their dreams
Where adults always have enough money
Where the elderly are not taken for granted or given limits.

Take me away to a place that doesn’t hurt
Where teenage hearts can prosper
Where the widowded can find love again
Where children and ‘puppy love’ are taken seriously

Take me away to a place far away
Where the people are new
Where everyone knows your name
Where the coffee shops are different and there isn’t one Starbucks

Take me away to Paradise
Where I can meet with my loved ones again
Where life doesn’t seem so pressured
Where you and I can rest peacefully together every morning and play every night.

Take me away to a place where we can be together

And not judged or told what we do is wrong because of our

Age, race, backgrounds, raisings, income, clothing, friends, parents,
or living status.

Take me away, and I’ll take you and together we can play in the neverending field.
Take me away from my problems and I’ll take you
Take me away.
And I’ll take you.

I hope you like it, and for the people who inspired it I hope its good.

Time has been flying by really fast today. I took my math final and...*shudders* I'd rather not relive the moment. I have my music today. ^_^ I'm happy. And I haven't gotten it taken away! But I don't want to jynix myself so Shhh! Buwahaha hey you know what's really gross? Thinking about my ex-boyfriends' mom doing his step dad. *gags* Yuk. So grody. I'm telling you because my mom told me yesterday. Ick ick ick. SO nasty. Anyway, I've got to study for my Info Tech final. PEACE! (try to get that image out of your mind ^_~)

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

P.S: Calm Down '07, its gonna be O.K.

No Musick...

I have no music because the banned it in the Exploration academy and I don't want it taken away from me. :( I'm very sad and very bored...I'm bringing it tomorrow.

Bored Out Of My Ever-Lovin' Mind,
Sacred Secret

Color Quiz!!

Personality Analysis of Sacred Secret.
Generated on Wed Jan 24 10:05:59 2007.

Sacred Secret's Existing Situation
Dissatisfied. The need to escape continued involvement with her present circumstances makes it imperative for her to find some solution.


Sacred Secret's Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.


Sacred Secret's Restrained Characteristics
Feels that she is burdened with more than her fair share of problems. However, she sticks to her goals and tries to overcome her difficulties by being flexible and accommodating.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.


Sacred Secret's Desired Objective
Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feeling into which she can blend. Responsive to anything esthetic and tasteful.


Sacred Secret's Actual Problem
Wants to be valued and respected, and seeks this from a close and peaceful association of mutual esteem.



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Flying Without Wings

Flying Without Wings Lyrics

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the faces of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you find that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing in every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the works of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendships
The kind you cherish all your lives
And when you know how much that means
You have found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
'Cuz who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

But for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place
It's the little things that only I know

Those are the things that make you mine, all mine
And it's the flying without wings
'Cuz you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
You're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy it brings
I'm flying without wings



TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Alright Cool

(unedited)
6oth post. Alright woot woot!

So anyway second post today I know kinda weird for me but I want to write. I don't know about what. I look over my old writings and I hate them. I mean I really loathe them with a passion, but I can't delete them off my computer because I know I'll regret doing that later. I'm bored though. Io should do my homework and study for my many tests but I don't really want to'cause that requires movement but so does eating. *sighs* I guess I should get to it...Oh yeah my english project is due tommorow I think instead because Mr.Sampson wants the essay to be good. I'm watching the news I know kill me now but I can't help it 'cause it's on. I'm so tired and I've been asleep for like four hours. I feel really heavy too. I think I'm going to leave. Yeah I have to work anyway.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Hey People

Hey guys what's up? I'm doing alright I guess. I mean nothings really pullin me down but I already feel under. You know? I feel like I can't get back to where I was before. But I guess that's okay as long as I don't feel any worse. I got new songs for my iPod. They're good. I'm listening to "Welcome To The Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance. They're good. I like their music but some of it's weird. Kind of like that one guy on ABS. lol I love that. abs at ABS. Albino Blacksheep rules. So does Bored.com. That place is awsum too. I spelt awesome stupid. Does anyone know why people have to be illiterate on the Internet? I just don't get hat like it takes so much more effort to put an 'o' in 'you'. And about iPods and other MP3 Players...people don't blast those tiny little speakers. If you have t he big ones (Fange') you can play it as loud as you want because no one can hear it but you. I know rock songs and songs that you really like you want really loud but when your around other people or somewhere quiet...don't be stupid. Thank you n_n. Now for other news my ass hurts and I have to work on these essays for class tomorrow so I'll talk to you all later. Peace!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S.: Pssstt! HeyFange'....HI!! ^___^

School Again

Well I'm back at school now and I'm working on my essays for tommorow. Ehhh I'm not doing well I only have two done out of six! Plus I think I bombed (did badly) on my math test today in third period. *sighs* As long as I'm not failing. And Finals are coming up. I need stuff for my diaorama for English class plus the essay to go with it. Jeez I'm shoulder deep in homework. I hope next semester isn't so bad...


TWMA (Maybe)
Sacred Secret

P.S.: Don't go to high school it's bad for your back _-_,

Oh My God It's Still Snowing!

It's still snowing guys. And I've got today off again. Brr it's cold, I'm just watching the snow fall and I'm cold. I think after it stops it should stay for a few more days. Not that I don't want to go back to school....<_<>_> You know though I can't help but think when I'm going to get out of school in June. I dunno. My cousin, Randy, got back from New York yesterday and so he's in the living room on the phone right now. He's always on the phone and bothering Nightmare. *sighs* my poor cat. Well it's cold and I'm bored. So guess what I'm going to do? I'm gonna crawl back into my bed and turn on my music. Hey Fange' I heard you have school today. Sorry, :( I love you.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Editing

Hey, I'm editing my blog. So if you experience some weirdness that's why. Just refesh it a couple times or come bac later. No big. Tell me how you like the changes!


Mixin' It Up,
Sacred Secret

Quick

(unedited)

Today is weird so far and I'm not sure why. It just is. I think it's because I don't have my music with me. And I'm actually aware of what is going on around me. *shrugs* I dunno. But it's weird. The crazy sub choir teacher is gond now (FINALLY) and Rosey is back! Yeesss! IT's so great. He had a baby and his name is Jeremiah, born on December 12 2006. He's almost two months old already and Rosey is just coming back! Oh well. lol when I have kids I'll probably quit my job for a year or two! I'd be too attached to go back to work. Unless it's just me. Then I wouldn't have a choice. So I haven't updated in a while, sorry about that. I've just been busy. Midterms of sorts are coming up now that the holidays are gone gone gone. I'll try to post more often, and tell you guys more. Right now I've only got a couple minutes left of class to tell you that a guy in my choir has been hitting on me (I think) so far he's gone out with two different girls in the choir. Maybe I'm trippin' but I think he's trying to get to me. O_o I hope I'm mistaken. That weird girl that sits next to me is talking but I'm not really paying attention, and it smells like hairspray...I blame Ciara for that. Lakeyah, my ex-best friend is in the doorway withher weird pink back thing talking to the kids in this class. Well I've only got five more minutes of this pathetic excuse for a class. Timwe to pack up and bolt. (Science is next)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Dreams

What wonderful things they are that allow us to live and yet die in the same scene. Dreams are blissful unrealities that unable us to live out all of our dreams and all of our fears. Who would want to live out their own fears though? Someone who has never experienced fear, one who has yet to experience pain. A child. Though I would never wish any fear or pain upon a child I would like for them to experience the feelings at least once, if not in life than in their dreams. Dreams are the core of your imagination, if you do not dream you possibly are not as creative a you could be. But I digress. Or perhaps I don’t. Is it not possible that rambling is only a forming idea? Quickly ever so quickly does it for and take over thine mind with overwhelming anticipation and giddiness. Soon after this idea is formed you would wish to carry it out would you not? By doing so possibly giving someone else an idea, being creative is a wonderful thing, truly it is. Maybe you can figure out a way to dream and be awake at the same time? Like breathing and talking, like relaxing and working. Things that wouldn’t normally come together until it is invented or found through accidental experimentation. Alright my odd rambling is over for the time being. Farewell.

TWMA,
SACRED SECRET

Who's an Internet Whore?

I am!

God I don't think I could live very long without going insane if I did not have this glorious thing called the internet. I may try and act like I don't really need it, but god almighty is it an ever important thought in my head. I don't have a MySpace or anything but I'm always wondering if I missed something, or if I have an important e-mail waiting for me, did I miss something on my calrendar? Oh god the inhumanity. I think the government should issue everyone an up to date working computer with DSL or better. I know I'm crazy but you all should have known that by now!! So how was your holiday? My Christmas was beautiful, I got almost everything I wanted. I got my iPod, and my stereo, plus I got mass Nightmare Before Christmas stuff (including a belt, a stocking, a keychain, some magnets, chapstick, stationary, ect) and I got a bunch of gift cards ( I LOVE GIFT CARDS) which allowed me to buy two new video games. Gods I love Christmas and now my b-day is almost here. I love holidays. I love a lot of things now that I think about it. So I guess I'm going to go surf my beloved internet until the sun comes up!! OH Yeah!

Internet Whore Forever,
Sacred Secret

Merry Christmas!

Hey! It's almost christmas, and since I probably won't post again until maybe my birthday, I'll leave yowith something that will entertain you. RANDOM STUFF FROM INFO TECH CLASS! Yaayy!! Okay, here we go!
This first selection is called "Away" I don't remember why...

"Away©"

Do you know how I feel when you touch me?

Do you know I can barely hold back tears?

Do you know how much you remind me of the things I used to know?

Do you know that when you speak I shudder?

Do you know how much your voices are a like?

The only difference I'm afraid is you've taken longer, loved me shorter.

Can you believe that there are people like me?

People whom just want to be truly loved. I cannot believe it has taken me so long.

To realize that I have done this by myself.

Maybe I should go away and try to live alone by myself away from me away from you…

Can you believe that I’ve been waking in the middle of the night, just to make sure your arm is still around my waist?

Just to make sure you are still holding me tightly?

To make sure that my body is still perfectly contoured to yours?

I can't believe I've made it this far...

Or that you've helped me reach it.

Well that was fun right? Kind of interesting if I do say so myself. Here's something else, this is called "Boredom" no wonder...

Once upon a time there was a magical greenbean. The magic greenbean got eaten one day and turned the cow that ate him into a frog that then got eaten by a snake that got eaten by another snake that got eaten by a crocodile that got killed and worn by some people that just happened to all be on the same plane that just happened to crash in the middle of the atlantic ocean. The moral of this story is: Run on scentences are bad for you, so watch your punctuation.

I was reaalllyy bored when I wrote that. Thus the title. This next thing is kind of a song kind of not. I'm not really sure what to call it. But it's technically titled "The End Of Humanity"

"The End Of Humanity©"

This is an end to humanity.

This is the end of my sanity.

This is the end, yes, this is the end.

This is the end of us all.
Can you feel it?

Can you feel hidden deep within your bones?

Can you feel it?

The sorrow searching for a home.
It’s such a feeling that it gives the reasoning to tell you this is the end.

This is the end.

This is the end of us all, us all.

This is the end of us all.
Must I say it again?

I will tell you only once more.

This feeling I’m getting is something I’m fretting.

Not something I can just ignore.
This is the end, yes, this is the end.

This is the end of us all, us all, this is the end of us all.

Morbid little tune isn't it? Well I think I'm doen now, that's all you get. So Merry Chrismahaunakwannzaka to you! lol I so stole that just now. And to answer a recent question Gaiety means cheerfulness and or merriment.

Alright, peace out everyone!

TWMA,

Sacred Secret!

P.S: And A Happy New Year!!!!

The Best Years

Song(s) Of The Day: "Through The Glass" --- Stone Sour & "Behind Blue Eyes" ---- Limp Bizkit

(unedited)
I was just looking at my stuff from elementary school and you know what? Those were the best years of my life. Minnimal drama, recess, cool teachers (mostly), little homework, field trips, man that was the best. I miss going to the Pacific Science Center in the spring and coming in from recess soaked with grass stains on my jeans from rolling around in the grass fields. I loved playing actual games in gym class and looking forward to it. I liked hanging out with my Real friends before/during/after school. I liked the simple gossip that didn't really matter. I though it was cool that it was okay for me to be out of the loop 'cause I wasn't the only one. I think my best experience in elementary school was the sixth grade. I learned a lot then, and I want to go back. But I don't want to feel the pain of splitting up again. That sucked. Me and my friends split up and went to different middle schools, but it's kind of okay now 'cause most of them go to my current school. Maybe I'm just feeling loathesome of my current situation right now, I don't know.

Phrase Of The Day: "Your only as good as what you create."

Punctuation Of The Day: "."

Well, I guess I'l go now. I've tidilated your senses enough. Oh btw check out those songs, okay? Their really awesome.



TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Jeez!

Holy crap can you believe it's almost Christmas already!? That went by hella fast. First I'm rolling down the street trying to go places after Thanksgiving then BOOM! It's Christmas time! Jeez...time needs to slow down a little bit I don't want to be older just yet. I like this age. I'm just settling into it. Doesn't it seem that way? You finally start telling people how old you really are because you haven't forgotten and you've got to start saying something else because your birthday came. It's insane. I know I know I don't have any reason to complain that I'm old but I feel like I can! Old people can't really complain either can they? What's so bad about being old other than you lose your flase teeth all the time and people start calling you gramps? I don't see a problem with being and old person who get's to sit on their butt all day and do whatever they please, be respected by total strangers 'cause your old. I like respect. I like being lazy. Being old sounds perfect to me! I could be wrong of course. Also, if young people and old people don't get along how come middle aged people who aren't kids anymore get along with old people? Is it because their about to be old? I dunno. Tell me if you find out. But then again I know alot of adults who hate old people, and they like seriously cannot stand them. It's funny sometimes. Well I guess I'll get to steppin now. I'm gonna go take a shower and eat some cereal. I like cereal. YEAH!


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Congratulations

Hey, how are things? Hope it's all well. My life has been busy. Or so it seems anyway. The voices lives are acting up again, and as much as I hate to admit it, and as mean as it probably is I love it when they have problems. It's so much more interesting that way becasue none of that ever happens to me. Sorry for those who are offened. I think I have a problem though. My ex-boyfriend and I seem to be hooking back up, not to go out again I can't do that. But we make a good couple when we're not dating. What sense does that make? And a guy I like is going to join the school choir next year, but I want to take French that year, what to do? EEK! Info Tech Teacher is coming g2g


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

I Like What You've Done With The Place!

So what do you think? This place doesn't look too shabby, eh? I like it. It satisfies me, now. OF course I'll have to change the background again soon and the word of the day is probably morew like the word of the week, but it's cool. I'm in Info Tech so I told me teacher I'm "researching website development using hands on techniques". lol he believes me. He also said I should carry a little notebook in my pocket for my ever flowing ideas. I guess it works 'cause I'm always wearing hoodies. So far my day's been alright. One of the Voices will be here later 'cause the way my room looks is pissing them off. (I'm okay with them cleaning my room! ^_^) So I'll be gone for a while after this class. I don't think I'll stay for science either. I'll just leave after I'm done with my blog. Does anyone know where/how you put your profile on this thing again? It was on there before but when I updated it went bye-bye. *tear* I'm sad now, we were so close!! Buwahahaha, I'm happy today I don't know why. Okay I guess I'll go now and I'll think I'll try and post later (after my room is clean) Peace!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S.: 14 days til Christmas!

New Version?

So my concert was great, I suppose I should have been a little calmer during it...but everyone else was too damn stiff! Now then, this new version of blogger brgins suspison to me. I don't know why. I have to go now. I was just keeping my promise of posting after my concert. Now I'm gonna go back to work 'cause the Voice that's here doesn't want to be where they live....if you know then it makes sense. Anyway, peace out.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S: My head is greasy. ^_^

Happy Birthday To You!

It's Fange's b-day! I'm happy. My birthday is three weeks and six days from today! lol I hope she's having a good day so far, if she didn't I'll beat up whoever made her unhappy!!!! *death glares the people at Fange's school who piss her off* Anyway ^_^ Today is happy. YOU MUST BE HAPPY TODAY! I'm getting my fro done today too (I think) so I can look fly for the winter ball. Which happens to be right after my choir concert. Yo'll know what day that is 'cause I'll post. I PROMISE. And if I don't I'll post the next day! lol or the day before. So expect a pose either the 8th, 9th, or 10th of this month. (If your smart you figured out what day my concert is already) Well I gotta go do stuff so I love you all and have a happy day!

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Black Outs

Black outs...you never expect them. Most people never even have them. But I do. I missed school today because of a black out. I don't remember this morning at all. But from what I was told I wouldn't get up so they left me. I didn't hear anything, feel or see anything, when I woke up around 1:40 I was confused and dazed. I didn't know why I wasn't at school or who was in the house or what was going on, or what day it was for that matter. These don't happen to me too often but sometimes they do. It's better than me going off and killing someone I suppose but it still freaks me out. I'm gonna go to school tommorow...

Darkness Encasing Me,
Sacred Secret

Blogging.

I won't blog for long I don't think. Maybe I will maybe I won't. I'm finishing up a powerpoint (ppt) for school, and I'm adding all the "cool graphics and animation". It's not so bad, just a little boring (I think) because it's for school and I can't put random stuff in it. But it should turn out cool when I'm completley finished. So far I've only done the first section out of four. Which is cool 'cause that's how much I'm supposed to do right now anyways. My Uncle is getting married today. His wedding is going to be off the hook, I saw the dresses and stuff. So cool. I got to help them prepare for the reception 'cause thats what Fange' was doing. Besides I didn't have anything better to do. If your wondering (you probably aren't) The Voices are doing good...most of them anyway. There are a lot of them expecting/having/trying/raising kids. That makes my job as a babysitter so much better. (The pay is beautiful) But they'll grow up eventually *sigh* lol I'm gonna go now 'cause I don't have anything better to do. Peace Out Ya'll.

TWMA
!Sacred Secret!

Back 2 School

I gotta go to school today, but it's 2 hours late. So I don't have to be there until 9:30. Which is cool. It's probably mega cold outside anywayz. I'm hungry though, so I'm going to have some Trix cereal and take a shower (hopefully I'll have time to take one, if not I'll just take one after school) It's hot in my house though, and I couldn't sleep for the life of me. And now I can't type worth crap!!!! Damndable typos, God! I don't know if my sister has to go to school today or not. I'll find out later. Well I'm gonna go do that now, since there's nothing better to do. Have a nice day.

TWMA,
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Oh My Gosh!

Okay like I said I'm posting now. But there isn't a whole lot to post about. The snow thing closed my school today. I think I enjoy not going to school but being home makes me sad :( . I want to go outside but it's cold and I take forever to get warm again. But I'll go out there eventually before the snow melts I guess. Until then I'll sit in my house and do my homework and talk to my friends who don't have school as well and sip hot cocoa. I don't think I've written anything new....I'll check for you though. Oh! Here's a story I wrote during Info Tech. If you find any similarities between a few books you've read or not that's probably because I was reading said books at the time. So here you go.

New Beginnings, Sorrowful Endings©:

Jeremiah paced back and forth silently, glancing at the clock."Is she done now?" he looked at his brothers and back to the clock.Leviathan shook his head
"She'll be done when she's done. They come and tell us, man. Wait." Jeremiah sighed and continued to pace. What if they didn't come and tell him? What if they just sat in there, making him suffer on purpose? Had he done something to offend them? He would apologize if that were what they wanted as long as they did not keep her for much longer.
He heard a door open and he looked over quickly.
"Mr..Yove'? Your wife and baby girl would like to see you now, and any immediate family." Jeremiah rushed over to her and looked at his brothers, "Come on, Come on!" He hurried as the five large men roused themselves from their chairs.
"Uh...well..." the nurse stammered, awed by their sheer size, "Are you all family?"
Leviathan looked at her and smiled. "Yes of course. May we see the baby now?" She nodded weakly and beckoned them through the doors.
Russell came last through the doors and shuddered, he did not like hospitals. "Trev, I don't want to go in there." he called softly to his brother, whom was ten years older than he.
"Come on, you want to see Mary and the baby right?" Russell nodded and followed close behind his brother, after taking his hand.
Leviathan walked with Aaron and Mack, talking with them about the game that had been on in the lobby. The Colts had won against the Patriots twenty-one to fourteen, and the twins were psyched. When the nurse opened the door to Mary's room, Jeremiah ran to her side so quickly it did not look like he had actually moved.
"Mary, are you alright? Where's the baby? Did you name her?" questions poured out of him so fast, Mary did notUnderstand, and held a weak paled finger to his lips. "Hush, Jeremiah. Samantha is fine. She's in the nursery." Jeremiah sighed in relief and kissed her hand, staring at her appreciatively.
Trevor and Russell came over and said softy that they were going to go see the baby, with the nurse. They left quietly. Aaron, Mack, and Leviathan joined Jeremiah at Mary's bedside, and smiled at her. She looked up weakly at all of them, smiling. "You all are such good boys. Stay that way, alright?" The twins exchanged worried glances, "What are you talking about?" Mack said frowning. Leviathan walked over to Jeremiah and whispered to him.
Jeremiah spoke softly his reply and a single tear slipped down his cheek. Mary touched the hands of the twins softly and looked back to her husband, "I love you, take good care of her." He nodded and said a soft "I will," before kneeling and covering his face with one hand, barely holding back sobs.
Aaron realized what was happening and backed away, falling ungracefully into a gray hospital chair. Mack's hands began to shake as he covered his mouth, convulsing, closing his eyes tightly attempting to hold back the flood of tears.
Leviathan stood beside Jeremiah, his large heavy hand on his shoulder, "It's going to be alright my brother." Jeremiah shook his head swiftly and stared, teary eyed up at his wife.
Mary looked down at him and smiled; "You have...to be." she took in another breath, "Strong for.Sam." He took her hand and nodded, not able to do anything else.
The nurse came back in with Russell and Trevor in tow, holding the smallest creature Jeremiah had seen in his entire life. And it was his, her soft cry, her smile, and her eyes. They were his, but they were also very much Marys'.
Russell handed Samantha over to Mary very carefully, completely aware of the protective Fathers eyes that watched his every movement. Mary smiled at the child and began to sing to her, in a soft motherly tone. After a while the baby's cries stopped, soon after that the song did as well.
With the baby still cuddled to her breast, she slipped out of the living world."We should take the baby from her now." The nurse suggested only getting six angry growls as her reply.
Jeremiah stood slowly leaning against the bed, his hand over his beloveds for the rest of time. "Jeremiah, take Sam, and lets get out of here." Leviathan instructed, patting the brothers back gently.
Nodding, Jeremiah slipped the child from her mother and held onto her tightly, watching as the motherly smile faded, falling into dust. As the body disintegrated into ashes, the men bowed their heads, praying for Mary's never-ending peace within Paradise.
Jeremiah signed release forms and walked out the door with one less person than he wanted to. He thought the birth of this child would be a happy event, the Samantha's birth would be an occasion the he could celebrate with his wife.
Now he is to celebrate it with only his brothers and Sam. It is not as bad as it seems, though. For Mary is a child, being born right now, who will run across Jeremiah's path in kindergarten class.

There I tried to make it not so...clumped together. But blogger does hate me so who knows. I had to make this post long with something so you got my story. Want a picture too? I neglected you so you can have a picture too. Okay fine. You don't get a picture right now 'cause blogger hates me. Or maybe it hates you...? Well whatever the reason, I'll post one later.

TWMA Ya'll!,
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Holy Cow!

Wow it's been a while huh? Jeez. I didn't mean for it to go so long but Thanksgiving was a blast and I had so much on my mind. I'm sure you all forgive me. I'll get back to updating really soon. I'll try and post tommorow if the school's computers aren't being stupid. I'm going to sleep now though so, happy belated Thanksgiving all and I'll talk to you tommorow!

TWMA,
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Happy 40th!

W00t! W00t! This is officially my 40th post! How Cool! *does a happy dance* How exciting how exciting!! So now I don't know what to do, this post should be really cool and exciting and full of good news! But...I'm not sure I have and exciting news for you...OH! Hey I know you get to know something that's kind of annoying! I'm two choirs right? And since I have two choirs it is a possibility that I will sing something I've sang before correct? Yes. And I'm okay with this. sBut why do I have to resing the songs I hate!??! Grrrrrr that's annoying! Gah, we're singing "African Noel" is both choirs and I hate that song...with a passion. But that isn't going to ruin my day, or this post! ^_^ Happy Birthday blog! Puwahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Now what? Uhm...wanna know a secret? I like cheese! Don't tell. lol I got that from Fange'.

I'M FULL! <---- Taco Bell commercial
Why buy a mattress anywhere else? *ping!* <--- Sleep Country
I hate you, you hate me! <--- Barney song spoof
Backstreets back, Alright! <---Uhm...
Out of the box! Out of the box! <--- Out of the box. Duh.
Happy cows come from california! <---Ahh...the power of cheese.


Okay, bye bye now!

Happy 40th, Mr. Blog!,
Sacred Secret!


P.S. <_<>_> TWMA ya'll.

"It's All Good."

lol I was thinking about my cousin saying that. And about him doing the cha cha. That was so freaking funny. But of course, There have been alot of funny things with them. Lie the creation and destruction of "Meximaru" the dancing mexican dog-man. That was great, and "calming" will forever be funny. The word "putty" too. lol I'm gonna get yelled at for putting all this on here but I don't care right now. I'm too happy. I don't know why either, I just am so I'm going to enjoy the feeling. The enjoyable feeling of being happy. It seems like I'm never happy anymore, by reading my recent posts. So I just want to be happy right now. For this single moment. here's a quote:

"To truly taste happiness you must experience everything but."

I like it. Z said that. It surprised me, 'cause he doesn't normally say stuff like that, but out it came and it was cool. Phury looked at him funny when he did but didn't think much of it. It just must be a day for "those times" you know? Those times when weird moods and ooc things happen? It's a day for those times! Wow, a whole 24 hours dedicated to doing stuff you wouldn't normally do. Saying things you wouldn't normally say, and talking to people you normally wouldn't! lol maybe I'm overly happy. I dunno. Oh! I had a dream last night, it was about Jesus. And him being a goat. And everyone who eats goat dying because they ate Jesus. And the people who drink goat milk turning into pigs because they drank Jesus, and the people who Sacrifice goats got sent to heaven 'cause that's what was going to happen anyway! lol didn't see that coming. The sacrifice thing is another inside joke. I couldn't tell you because it wouldn't make anysense unless you knew the people and blah blah blah. *smiles* It was funny though. SO I think I'm gonna go now and write a story. Yes I'm in class. But it doesn't matter! Let the writing flow, man! Let it flow!

:)

TWMA,
Sacred Secret!

[Insert Title Here]

I stayed home today. I feel sick, and tomorrow I'm gonna have to ask all my teachers what we did in class. Oi what a hassle. But I still have voice lessons today. I'm excited but my nose is stuffy which makes my voice sound weird. So, whatever. I'm listening to Evanesence. But it's their older stuff. My voice sounds like theirs. So I'm trying to get my voice to sound normal again. Right now I'm trying to remember what I was thinking about yesterday. It was something like how astonished I was that my math class was my favorite place to be in the whole school...I don't know why, but it is. I feel good in there.
Somtimes when I feel alone, more so then normal in my bed I place my hand to my stomach, just to feel my own heartbeating. It's a weird thing that I do, I know, but I do it anyway. It makes me feel less alone for some reason. Maybe because when I do that I can pretend I'm not alone at all. I can pretend I have the life I want. Someone ideal to share the bed with and a much smaller someone depending on me. Some I love before I even meet them or hold them in my arms. Have you ever done that? Probably not. I'm odd so I understand if you've never done any of the things I ask you if you've done. *sighs* I...I just want a child. They don't even have to be mine. But I need a child in the house, or someone I can go to that has a child. I'm in one of those maternal moods if you can't tell. Though only Fange' knows I have these moods. These times when I just need a child to talk to an hold on to. To make me feel like I'm doing something important....finally. Matter of fact, want to see the baby I love the most? Here:

It's blurry, so it doesn't do her justice. But she's a beautiful little girl. Telling you her name would be stupide, on my part, so you don't get to know. I watched her on monday and it was so great taking care of her. Watching her walk all around the house and play with her toys. Feeding her was an adventure! *smiles* I loved it though. So anyway.

Now I'm writing down some lyrics. They aren't my own, so don't get any ideas. I think I'll post again later today.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret