Tired

That's my car. Or it's my read car anyway. Sometimes I can dream about driving in it with a mystery guy. I'm old. Not old old but old, lke 24, 25. we're driving down the road laughing and listening to SexyBack. Then we see some cows, and laugh somemore. Sometimes the guy next to me is Tyler, sometimes its Brandon, sometimes its some guy I don't know. This last time it was the boy who sits next to me in Algebra. His name starts with J. I was surprised when I saw him next to me that time. 'Cause he's never been in it before. But when I rode with him we hit a cow. What do you think that means? I didn't hit any cows with any of the other guys! I wonder what that means...I'm not sure. I'm tired right now so if nothing I say makes sense than......It's because I'm tired. I'm not going to edit any of this either so if it doesn't make sense.... it doesn't make sense. My computer is being slow so when I type something and then stop it comes up like three secondes after I type it. Oh 'cause I'm tired and bored...here's a poem I wrote today:


In Touch ©

Keeping in touch with you
Has become time
Consuming
Taking away from my
Life
So in this
Situation
I'm forced to say
Goodbye...



Yeah so I wrote that during Scinence class, I think. Yeah. I'm gonna go now 'cause I have to recede into my mind.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

P.S. The word of the day is Abhorrent. It's definition is Detestable. USE IT!

We're Bringing Sexy Back!!!

AWW YEAH!!!! CHOIR STARTS TODAY!!! YESSSSS!!!!!!!! I know I'm in the school choir but I LOVE this choir! IT starts today and I'm sooo ohappy I've been bouncing off the walls annoying everyone all day. 'Cause I can't stop talking about it. I love choir so much. It might becom a little confusing with BOTH choirs but I'll deal, cause I love choir as previously stated about twenty times. I'm gonna see all my choir buddies. OMG I can't wait to see Joe! YAY JOE! Lol Joe is so awesome. He's like 60 feet tall. Err 6'0 lol. I should get going. It doesn't start til four but I want to go I wanna be at choir and flip out on all my friends and shnite. I hope Taylors there. Both Taylors. And Evan and Honora and Chelsey said she might drop by. Oh and Brett I wanna see him too!! Man oh man......I Wanna See My Choir Peeps Yo!!!! Lol I gotta call my bff later and tell her choir started. Which means She'll probably be at my next concert As Always. I look forward to the part of the show when she stands up in the audience and yells "GO HALF-WITT!" lol that's always my favorite part of every concert. Well I'm gonna go now! Latah!


You Never Know Til Ya Try,
Sacred Secret

September 11

What's up all? As you know today is 9/11. A tragic day. Now I don't want this to be a depressing post so I'll make it short. I'm holding a moment of silence at9:11 pm. I know it's so way off the actuall time of this tragedy but...at least I'm being respectful right? I hope you've all held a moment of silence in respect for this traumatic event.


God Bless,
Sacred Secret

Nozoic 2

Okay last post had the title 'Nozoic' because I don't think this is a real word yet. I want you to know what my definition is of it.

Nozoic (nuh-zoe-ick)
Verb
Definition: The irritating nasal sound made by objects such as alarm clocks.

What do you think? Good huh? I like it I'm going to submit it to the Websters dictionary site and see if they'll take it. If they don't oh well. I don't care. So how was your summer? Mine was intresting. Kinda boring. Possibly one of the best/worst summers of my life. Right now I think I want to talk about one of my "forbidden" topics. My Dad. I don't know exactly why I want to write about him right now I just do. For those of you that don't know me and my dad don't have the best relationship in the world. He lives in Hawaii with his wife and son. He has a nice little house and he has a nice car. Though the downside of his perfect little life ss that he's in the navy and he hardly sees his family. I live in Washington. As you all know, if you've read my profile. And you knowe what? I don't want to write about him anymore. I want to go listen to music and write in my journal. I did my homework already. Second day of school and I already have homework. What kind of crap? Anyway. ttyl

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Nozoic

School is weird, and I'm going back today. I have to be there at 7:30. So not long from now. I'm barely awake. But awake enough to be writing this. I think my brain is going to die. I can't keep this "wake up at 6 and go to sleep at 10" thing for much longer. It hurts my insomnia. My body craves the moon and I forever want to stay up and watch its slow yet beautiful dance across the midnight sky. Where this giant pale ball calls to me as it floats carelessly amongst the stars. Where I so desperately long to be. Sometimes I think about joining them. The stars I mean. Just so I can be around the moon. Have conversations with other stars that know about it. I know you don't understand me right now but just keep reading okay? I think if I ever had to go to counseling my mom would have to pay a lot for the extra time I would spend there just for the hell of being with someone I know I can talk to for hour(s). When I think about going to a counselor though I can't help but think that they won't understand me at all. That they'll just nod and smile and pretend their listening and then I'll go back for another session and ask them a question and they'll be like "Oh well, last time didn't really count. And I had so much on my mind blah blah blah." Then I would have to leave. I would have to walk out. My mom would have wasted her money and then I would be without someone to talk to....Again. Still I can't help but wonder if I'm the only one in the world who can live without speaking to anyone and simply observing. I know this would be pretty hard at first but I think I can do it. This part of the blog is just the thoughts that pop into my head so bear with me. I don't understand why people are so greedy. It just doesn't make sense. Why fight and demand and be a backstabber just so you can have that spiffy iPod Nano? It's not even that cool. I find it quite ridiculous. But then again...so are a lot of things. I guess I'll go now... I'm gonna go eat some Golden Puff cereal....

"I find it kind of funny. I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."

Sacred Secret

Bad Poems

So I'm only doing one thing on this post 'cause my friend said I should I'm posting a crappy poem because she likes it so here t is:


Haunted ©

Never ending drifting through the world of the
Living
Simply drifting nothing more
As though death himself has taken refuge upon
My shoulder
Whispering sweet nothings to me
Promising pain nor pleasure, save sweet bliss
Of nothingness
Only to be free in the state
Of mind the crowds
Me
Soon my life will end in a flash of quick
Motions and songs
Sirens of the sea will
Devour
My physical being until my soul
Is left
Floating with no where to go
Soon my spirit will have no where to
Go but deaths awaiting
Arms
Then I will no longer be drifting in the
Sea
Of human flesh I will be an Immortal
Again
Living the undead life only an Immortal
Maybe
Able to live
Death has taken me into his
Arms
Still his warm breath engulfs me
As I dream about his
Promises…..


Don't steal it please.


TWMA,
Sacred Secret

I'm in love with a stripper! Lol no no. Though they refer to him as the soccer stripper. He's not. I just wanted to say that. This post really isn't about anything. I'm going camping on Thursday. That's so sexxy. I haven't gone camping in forever. I hope someday I'll be able to take my kids camping. What can I say? I have overly maternal needs. I Want kids. I don't think I'd be able to live without being able to have my own kids or be around little kids for long periods of time. I love kids. Babies especially. I can't get enough of them. Though....I think it's going to be hard for me to have kids because of the hereditary complications within my family for pregnancy. So yeah. I think that I'm going to go in my room now and crank up some musick, cause I just had a weird mood swing and my mom is pissing me off. Or....I could just recede into my head....I think I'll do both. See you all later.

The picture mimics my mood.

TWMA,

Sacred Secret

Today

I think this is just a random post of boredom so if anything in this doesn't make any sense. My mind is filled with roaming thoughts that I just want to get out because the writer in me needs release It needs to be wreitten down quickly and unedited. It needs to be unread by human eyes. Only to be reread and reseen by me and the Voices. I think I'm going to go and scribble down random thoughts. Without being edited. My thoughts unedited and uncut. Sounds like something you'd see on Comedy Central. I guess it might be if your not me. You probably wouldn't understand anything that I wrote. But....that's not the case. Since I don't feel like giving any of you a picture. I'll give you a blurb from my newest writing project. Titled in my mind Project: Secrets ....You don't have to like it but if you do...coment. NICELY.


"Bound. Bound completely. What am I talking about? My feet of course, what else would you bind? Yes, they’ve bound my feet. I told them I didn’t want to….but who cares what I have to say? I’m only the princess….no big. It really hurts, I can’t feel my toes. You know why? They broke them. Yes, they broke my toes and then tied them in black and purple silk strips. I can’t run anymore, I can’t do anything but lay here because of the pain. It hurts so bad. But Reumara, my sister, she said when I get older it won’t feel as bad. Her feet have been bound for a while now and she walks gracefully. Like a cat. Though she cannot do so for long. Do you want to know what exactly happened to me today?"

Well that's it. Project: Secrets in stores probably never. Look for it.

TWMA,
Sacred Secret

Boredom

I'm going to go through some extreme boredom over the next few days (excluding Thursday which I'll explain later) You wanna know why such boredom will be going on? My Best Friend for....god...10 years? Has gone to Califonia for 7 days! Yes S-e-v-e-n a whole friggin' week! I'm going to be soooooooo bored. I hope she has a fantastic time though. 'Cause she's never been out of our little state. I've been out-of-state before and had loads of fun, so I hope she does the same. Anywho....What am I going to do? *sighs*....You know I think I'm going to sleep, play video games, eat, and repeat until she get's back. *shakes her head* Nah nah. I'm already extremely out of shape (not fat just out of shape) So I'll...beg my mom to take me down to the pool or somethin' enroll in some Gymnastics classes, get back in shape and try out for the gymnastics team at my new high school. It's too late to try out for Soccer so I might try to get on a non-school team. Might be fun. I'll keep Choir up, only because I was begged to death by my parents, my friends, and my fellow choir members. Hmm....I wonder why? Okay about Thursday.....I don't know if I should put this on the interweb....Okay. Well I have a "Date" on thursday. Nothing big but me and Tyler (my b/f) are going down to the water to walk aroud for a few hours, maybe grab something to eat at the Jack in The Box up the street. lol I told you it was nothing big, hopefully I'll be able to call my bff afterwards and tell her all about it. Maybe beforehand too and get some advice. My mom isn't ready for this but I am. My b/f is sweet and gentle, he's not at all rough. I'm sure he could fire out some punches if need be but when it comes down to it he's a lover not a fighter. Which is cool 'cause so am I. I think that's what my mom is worried about though. She doesn't want him to touch me. Like he's going to. *rolls her eyes* Whatever. I just want to spend some time with him. Alone. I say that because he acts so weird around everyone else. Like he's trying to impress everyone. I guess I do that too though. When we're alone...he talks so much sweeter and freely. His true nature comes out and he's very artistic and observant. I want to say more about him but I can't. I don't know what else to say other than he's a great guy. Well I have to go put Nightmare to bed. (he's falling asleep in my lap) Peace out and wish me luck!

TWMA
Sacred Secret

Home again...

Yeah I'm home. Home is good. This is a random post about nothing other than me telling you I'm home. I got a cat. His name is Nightmare. Maybe I'll post a picture of him when I get a chance. He's so cute. Heehee we got him yesterday, and he's two months old. If you can tell me when his b-day is then I'll kiss you! lol j/k j/k I wouldn't kiss strange people that I don't know. Actually...I don't even really kiss people I do know! I do kiss my Nightmare though. Lol sorry I can't stop talking about him. Anyway I'm going to go now....I don't have anything to give you so...Maybe next time?



TWMA
Sacre Secret

Alone At Last

Yeah, my NYC visitors left. Went All the way back to New York at 11 o'clock. Yesterday. I'm so happy. And yet...kinda sad. 'Caue I love having them around. They're family. But I don't want them in my house. I think I told you guys this already. Anyway, Hmm.....the silence is great. Seriously. It's like "Hello!" "..." No one answers. It's great. I'll get tired of that after a while though. This post doen't really have anything to say...So...here's a list of good songs I've been listening to!

1. Mickey --- Toni Basil
2. Ladies Night --- Kool & The Gang
3. Miss You --- Aaliyah
4. O --- Omarion
5. Stupid Girls --- Pink


Check 'em out eh?


TWMA
Sacred Secret

NYC Visitors

I haven't posted in forever!! I know. I was going to post about the 8th grade cruise but the stupid thing wouldn't post. So now I'm posting about the 8 new people in my house. They won't be here much longer but still...omg. They're is sooo many of them I don't know what to do. They piss me off soooo bad. Three of the have crushes on me I think (which is major nasty 'cause their my cousins) and one of them, the only girl, won't leave me alone. She follows me every where because she's surrounded by boy's all the time in her small apartment in New York. Yeah, these people are from the big city. The hustle and bustle away from my little home town. It's so loud here with all of them but I love them and I don't really want them to leave but I want them to get their own house out here 'cause they like it too. They're all like "Dang! Look at all the trees! The people are so nice!" It's funny to listen to them because I'm so used to it all. Maybe I even take some of it for granted. I'll try not to do that anymore. I want to notice and apperciate the little things. That's your homework. "Apperciate the little things!" Okay? Talk To You Later!!!

TWMA
Sacred Secret

Not Much

Not much going on right now. Dwindling down to the last days of school. I have a cruise to go on, and today we got yearbooks. Man, do I take crappy pictures. Not as bad as my boyfriend though! He looks like a complete dork. Oh well. It's All Good lol. We got our jackets today. They have our names (me and my friends) on them and our Girl Scout troop number. Yeah yeah, laugh if you want but I'm a GIRL SCOUT AND PROUD OF IT DAMMIT! Heehee, did you people do stuff today? What are you going to do for this summer? I want to know!!! Send in your summer plans!!


TWMA, The Secrets Out,
Sacred Secret

And now our feature presentation...

Hey y'all. Happy Father's Day to ya. Today, since I don't have a dad to celebrate, me and my Ma are watching movies all day. Right now we're watching Aladdin. A little while ago we watched Roll Bounce. That's a good movie. Aladdin is better though. lol we're watching it on VHS!! It looks so old. It's not though but it looks that way. Technology (or techology) has come a long way. Well since I don't have much to write about today, I'll post a crappy poem I wrote!


Perfect
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wish I could be you.
~
So perfect and proud.
~
I wish I could be you.
~
So happy and loud.
~
I’m glad I’m not you.
~
Your personality sucks.
~
I’m glad I’m not you.
~
Your smile is fake.
~
I’ll pray for you.
~
You need a true friend.
~
I’ll watch out for you.
~
You look a little depressed.
~
I wish I was you.
~
So popular, so free.
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I’m glad I’m not you.
~
So many lies to weave.
~
Me, my life’s great.
~
Screwed up in the center.
~
And kinked at the end.
~
Fucked up at the beginning.
~
And bumpy along the road.
~
But your life sucks.
~
I’m glad I’m not you.
~
Your life sucks.
~
Your smile is fake.
~
Your personality sucks.
~
You need a true friend.
~
You need someone.
~
I’ll watch out for you.
~
You need a true friend.
~
I’ll stand by you.
~
Be true.
~
Be true…
~~~~~~~~


You like it? Please don't steal it, as crappy as it is. I know it sucks no need to tell me. But you can post a comment anyway! Back to cheering for Prince Abooboo!

TWMA
Sacred Secret

Boy troubles

Yes....I'm going to talk about guys. There's a guy at my school I'm not so sure I want to go out with. But I might. I'll find out tommorow. I really like him, but I don't know if he really likes me and being around guys scares me. Just certain guys scares me. Not all just some, cuase I want to know if they'll like me or if I'm acting retarded. I don't know why but I've changed a lot from the "BOYS SUCK!" to the "I hope he likes me..." thing and it bothers me. *sighs* Maybe I just....GAH! I don't know, I do know that I need advice. I think I'm going to date him. I like him, I think he likes me and we've know each other forever. I hope I'm doing the right thing.....

TWMA
Sacred Secret

Another...

I have another blog. I created it for my cousins because they're over here a lot and they wanted one. So whatever they post is completely them. I have nothing to do with it. Not that anyone cares. I haven't posted here for while. It's only been a few days but you know. I'm listening to a bunch of different songs right now. Evanesence, disney, Sisqo. I know it's weird. But eh. I have to go study a play for L.A. (english) now so I'm out.


TWMA
Sacred Secret

Should I..?

I have to go to school tommorow. That sucks. This weekend was awesome. My choir concert was.....stressful. My duet was good I guess. Everyone thinks it was soo cool. I don't get it, cause I don't think it was that good but I'm just like that. So *shrugs* eh. You know I think, this is just the beggining. Bercause everyone keeps saying "You should get her voice lessons!" and stuff...but...I'm not sure that's what I really want to do...I mean sure everyone wants to be famous but I don't want to become a snob and say stuff like "Oh I NEVER lived in a little house lie that! I've always had two stories!" or some crap that makes me something that I'm not. I never want to forget where I came from, or who I grew up with. What has changed me or what lessons I've learned. You know? *sighs* Maybe I'm just being retarded...

TWMA
Sacred Secret

CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUWAHAHAHAHAAHAHA! This! Yes THIS! This is the day of my beautiful concert! You will NOT BE THERE! HAHA! But I will. And my friends will...maybe I'll send you a picure....or not. But anyway today I was walking in the hallway and I tripped and fell on my face and it was bad. I tripped on one of those door stoppy thingys. Y'know the ones that come out of nowhere? Yeah. I was walking and BAM! It came out of freakin' NOWHERE! I was going to start yelling at it ('cause it tripped me) But I already looked like a fool so I let it slide.....this time. OO! OO! Wanna
see a picture?
That's cool huh? I got it off yet another quiz. I have all 7: Envy, Gluttony, Lust, Sloth, Wrath, Pride, and Greed. I'm not going to post all the pictures. You only get this one. But if you want all the pictures.....how about.....you take the test? That's a good idea. I'm glad I thought of it. Sorry I'm being mean to you guys. *shrugs* Okay! I'm out now!

TWMA
Sacred

Is the title supposed to be important?

Ahhh, San Fransisco. What a beautiful place! I wish I could go back there. Of course this is just a random picture that I felt like posting. You know it's one of those sample pictures you get that automaticaly come with the computer? Well whatever. Today....was kinda retarded. As I mentioned in earlier posts, today was busy. I went to school (DUH) and during 6th period we went to the Spring Fling. Basically a little spoof off of the movie Grease (for all of those that have seen the movie) There were five blow up bouncy toy things (a slide, a basketball hoop, a bouncy house, a maze, and one of those things that you beat people with Q-tip like beaters, and a basketball tie-you-togeher-to-make-you-look-stupid thing) and then there was a tarp that had four buckets, one for each corner, and four sponges. I think you kow where this is going. You throw the wet sponges at people and get them wet. Why there was a tarp I don't know since all of this was on grass. But whatever. But by the time I got there looked at everything and decided I wasn't going to go on anything because of three reasons: 1) It was all rubber and rubber burn hurts. 2) I was wearing capris, a tank top, and flip flops ten sizes too big. And didn't want rubber burn (see reason 1) 3) I didn't want to make myself look like anymore of an idiot then I already did. Becuase I don't normally wear flip flops OR capris to school (actually...I don't wear any of those EVER) So I was running around looking like a moron for and hour (a very VERY boring hour) waiting for school to get out so I could go home and go to my best friends track meet. That was basically the best part of my whole damn day. Her school (Olym) won 2 events. Mind you this girl is faster than the wind itself. She's the fastest person I know I swear. But anyway it was awesome, expecially her last race. That was freaking cool. Anyway, when we reluctantly left, after she was done we went to (we as in my mom and me) to my mom's award ceremony where she got an award from her PTSA. (she works at a school, but she's not a teacher) So that was cool. Boring as all get out but cool. There was a raffle too. But like always we didn't win anything. So now we're home and I'm typing this. Obviously. I think I'm done boring you now. But if I bored you.....you wouldn't still be reading this...hmmm....anyway! Talk to you all later!

TWMA
Sacred Secret

Today

Today, was tuesday. And I went to choir. Where me and my friends had a wonderful time. As normal. And today at school things were good. Now to tell you, about my up and coming weekend. THURSDAY FREAKING SUCKS! My best friend's track meet is on thursday, the carnival at my schoool is on thursday, and my mom is getting an award on guess when? THURSDAY! *sighs* I hate Thursday. Always have. Always will. Thursday sucks. I don't really want to write a whole lot right now untill later. You know. Late night hours. So I'll talk to you later and, maybe just maybe I'll post another picture! I know you all look forward to it!

TWMA,
Sacred